I told you yesterday that I'm worried that my secret blog won't be safe anymore right? Because of a stupid thing I did. Good thing that I verified that it's a safe secret again. Haha!
Last night, I asked my boyfriend if he saved the links that I gave him for the blog that I allowed him to read. He told me that he did not save it and he only viewed it using the links that I gave him. Good thing! Oh well, he's always like that. I just had doubts that he might save it but he's not the type. Unlike me that almost all of the things, I'm saving it in my computer. Haha! Even our convos before.. Imagine that!
Good thing he's not the type and my secret blog is safe again. :)
Anyway, I was talking to him awhile ago and I told him that I was writing to you. He wants to read my blog but it's okay with him if I don't want him to. Oh, such an understanding hubby. :x But I really want to burst now. I just want to give the link to him. But, I'm stopping myself. Haha! What's the sense of having you if little by little I'll be telling people about you? Right? So, I'll just control myself. :)
And yeah, I have plans of telling my boyfriend about you.. about your link but that would be once we broke up. And that's a blurry thing. We won't be breaking up. So I guess, I'll keep you forever... until I can. Haha! BLEH =P
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Not So Cool
I finally know what seems to be the problem with my boyfriend. Yesterday, I told you that he's not texting me right? And he didn't even call our home to tell me what's happening to him. So around three in the afternoon, I called their place and interrogated him on why he's not texting. He said his phone is busted as of the moment and he don't have any signal. He kept on trying to turn off and on his phone to see if there's any improvement but there's none. Fcuk. That's why he can't text me.
I was so worried during that time that I was so cold and asked him, "Why did you not call me here at home?" He told me he was thinking that I am busy. Psh. I always have time for him, doesn't he know that fact? :( I answered, "So if I did not call, you will never call me because you will always think that I am busy? Psh." He said no and told me that he do have plans of calling me but not as of the moment. I hate it. He thought that I am busy but it never crossed to his mind that I'm also worrying about him. X(
After that talk, I told him I'll be going out and hung up the phone. But after I accompanied my cousin, once I got home, I called him again and try to make amends. I was in the cool state already but he still got that lonely voice. :( I was worried again for there might be another problem. X_x But then again, I need to cut off our conversation because I need to babysit my other cousin. Then, I slept. Haha!
I called him again once I woke up around ten in the evening. I was only trying that he might stilll be awake by that time and yes, he was. I told him about what happened during my day and he was worried because I got a cut on my finger. He was so worried that I thought he was angry at me because I only cleaned my finger using water and not alcohol. Hah! Talk about a scary cat. :-S After that, I wanted to eat already and my head is aching so we decided to say our goodbyes. My auntie's family is also at our living room and I don't want them to take notice of me being so long already at the phone. So I told him my goodbyes and told him that I'll be sleeping already.
Just this morning, I woke up around six in the morning and decided to go up and ate breakfast. I texted him because I do have hopes that his phone will be okay soon. I kept on texting him neglecting the fact that his phone is busted. Talk about hoping, eh? Then I slept again for I cannot call at their place because I do know he's still sleeping. And by ten in the morning, I called at their place and say my Good Mornings to him. Ahaha. He just woke up and we only have a few chat. At least, we were cool -- hmm, slight. He's still down because of what happened to his phone. Argh. I want to buy him a new phone already! But he don't want me to. :( He's thinking that people might think that he's only using me because of my money. Oh well, I love you baby and don't care about what people with think because that's not what I'm thinking about you! So, I tried if I can make him say if I told him that I'm just gonna let him borrow one. But still, he don't want to. He'll buy a simcard later so that he can try if it's only a sim card problem. I do wish!
It's just today that I realize that it's really hard without having a phone. Yesterday, I was thinking that it's only his phone and that we can still talk over our residential phone. But once I woke up this morning, I realized that it's quite hard. I don't know on what time will he wake up or what he's doing as of the moment unlike before. :( And he's also worried because he's going to their school tomorrow and he can't text me. Haaayyy.. I just don't want to show him that I'm affected also because he'll be more affected. :(
I just wish that you're phone will be fixed soon baby.
I miss your text messages. :(
I was so worried during that time that I was so cold and asked him, "Why did you not call me here at home?" He told me he was thinking that I am busy. Psh. I always have time for him, doesn't he know that fact? :( I answered, "So if I did not call, you will never call me because you will always think that I am busy? Psh." He said no and told me that he do have plans of calling me but not as of the moment. I hate it. He thought that I am busy but it never crossed to his mind that I'm also worrying about him. X(
After that talk, I told him I'll be going out and hung up the phone. But after I accompanied my cousin, once I got home, I called him again and try to make amends. I was in the cool state already but he still got that lonely voice. :( I was worried again for there might be another problem. X_x But then again, I need to cut off our conversation because I need to babysit my other cousin. Then, I slept. Haha!
I called him again once I woke up around ten in the evening. I was only trying that he might stilll be awake by that time and yes, he was. I told him about what happened during my day and he was worried because I got a cut on my finger. He was so worried that I thought he was angry at me because I only cleaned my finger using water and not alcohol. Hah! Talk about a scary cat. :-S After that, I wanted to eat already and my head is aching so we decided to say our goodbyes. My auntie's family is also at our living room and I don't want them to take notice of me being so long already at the phone. So I told him my goodbyes and told him that I'll be sleeping already.
Just this morning, I woke up around six in the morning and decided to go up and ate breakfast. I texted him because I do have hopes that his phone will be okay soon. I kept on texting him neglecting the fact that his phone is busted. Talk about hoping, eh? Then I slept again for I cannot call at their place because I do know he's still sleeping. And by ten in the morning, I called at their place and say my Good Mornings to him. Ahaha. He just woke up and we only have a few chat. At least, we were cool -- hmm, slight. He's still down because of what happened to his phone. Argh. I want to buy him a new phone already! But he don't want me to. :( He's thinking that people might think that he's only using me because of my money. Oh well, I love you baby and don't care about what people with think because that's not what I'm thinking about you! So, I tried if I can make him say if I told him that I'm just gonna let him borrow one. But still, he don't want to. He'll buy a simcard later so that he can try if it's only a sim card problem. I do wish!
It's just today that I realize that it's really hard without having a phone. Yesterday, I was thinking that it's only his phone and that we can still talk over our residential phone. But once I woke up this morning, I realized that it's quite hard. I don't know on what time will he wake up or what he's doing as of the moment unlike before. :( And he's also worried because he's going to their school tomorrow and he can't text me. Haaayyy.. I just don't want to show him that I'm affected also because he'll be more affected. :(
I just wish that you're phone will be fixed soon baby.
I miss your text messages. :(
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Stupid mouth!
Last night, my boyfriend asked if I already wrote a blog about what happened yesterday. I said yes and told him that I did not write it in Multiply.
During the afternoon yesterday, I was so stupid that I can't help myself telling him that I have a secret blog. Hahaha! You know the feeling that you have a secret that you just want to burst? You just want to blurt it out? That's what I felt yesterday. Oh well, he can't search for this anyway.
But.. with what I did? He do have resources now that if ever he want to, he can know search my secret blog. AMF. Yesternight, he wants to read the blog that I wrote that I can't help but to say yes to his plead. So, I print screened my blog, uploaded it to photobucket and gave him the link to that. And it's just know that I realized that he can already search for my blog!
He can just copy paste one sentence in my blog, then BINGO! He can find this! Oh shit. I just wish that he can't think of that. X_x
Now.. my secret is in danger.
Thank you to my stupid mouth and mind. X_x
During the afternoon yesterday, I was so stupid that I can't help myself telling him that I have a secret blog. Hahaha! You know the feeling that you have a secret that you just want to burst? You just want to blurt it out? That's what I felt yesterday. Oh well, he can't search for this anyway.
But.. with what I did? He do have resources now that if ever he want to, he can know search my secret blog. AMF. Yesternight, he wants to read the blog that I wrote that I can't help but to say yes to his plead. So, I print screened my blog, uploaded it to photobucket and gave him the link to that. And it's just know that I realized that he can already search for my blog!
He can just copy paste one sentence in my blog, then BINGO! He can find this! Oh shit. I just wish that he can't think of that. X_x
Now.. my secret is in danger.
Thank you to my stupid mouth and mind. X_x
He is Bleach
*Just want to remind you that I won't be giving real names in this blog. Real names are definitely a no-no here in case someone will search for something and will incidentally go to my blog. Protecting the persons that are involved here? Hahaha! Hell, yeah. :P
Last night, he texted me and told me that he's home already. Actually, it's not a personal message and twas a group message to all his contacts in Y!M. Then once I went online, that's the time that I read his status that he went to their province. Doesn't matter that much for we don't communicate anymore and.. he's always like that.
I known Bleach since high school and that was the time that Air and I were a couple. They were friends and they do know each other that's why technically, I also know Bleach. But ever since, he's the quiet type. And when we got to talk last year, like January or before that, he told me that he also courted me while I was with Air. But hell, I can't remember it. Hahaha!
We got the chance to talk again during that time because.. he started courting me. We started to text and talk to each other at the wee hour of the night. I enjoyed his company and our conversation. There was even a time when he fetched me around five in the morning so that we can eat breakfast in a 24hour store. I was dead hungry during the time that we were talking and we waited for the gate to be opened by five in the morning and there, we ate. Twas sweet, though. He even treated me. Haha! And we were hiding from my mom because we open our store around six in the morning.
During that time, I was decided already that once he asked me, I'll say yes to him. Yeah, I want to be his girlfriend and I want to give it a try. But then, it was complicated. I still have Shy during that time and he only got a "cool off" with his girlfriend Antsy. So, we lost communication and part ways. I don't want to be with him anymore for I don't want a complicated relationship.
But last month, he started texting me again and trying to revive our communication. He told me he still has a crush on me and he still wants me as a girlfriend. But hell, he's still committed with Antsy. Whenever I want to talk about her, he don't want to. Ha! Maybe he was feeling guilty that he's flirting with me even though he still has a girlfriend.
I do have a boyfriend, of course you know that. But I still want to experience on how to be his girlfriend. Is he sweet? Is he caring? Can he fetch me also from work? Can we always be together? He just live nearby so that might be possible. Hmm.. Does he kiss sweetly? Is he delicious? LMAO. Seriously, I just want to know. I'm just curious. But, I so love my boyfriend. And he don't deserve to be cheated. That's why I just reply to Bleach's text whenever my boyfriend allow me to and that's it.
Now, Bleach and I's communication were back to zero. We don't text anymore. We don't talk anymore. And if ever I'll be seeing him outside, I won't be minding him. I won't even smile to him. It's not being bitter. It's not being shy. I just can't see any reason for me to do that.
But hell, I'm still curious on what's the feeling of him having as a boyfriend? Oh well, it's not our time. Or maybe, we will never have our time to be in a relationship. And I won't be risking my relationship with my boyfriend just because of my curiousity. Bleh =P
Last night, he texted me and told me that he's home already. Actually, it's not a personal message and twas a group message to all his contacts in Y!M. Then once I went online, that's the time that I read his status that he went to their province. Doesn't matter that much for we don't communicate anymore and.. he's always like that.
I known Bleach since high school and that was the time that Air and I were a couple. They were friends and they do know each other that's why technically, I also know Bleach. But ever since, he's the quiet type. And when we got to talk last year, like January or before that, he told me that he also courted me while I was with Air. But hell, I can't remember it. Hahaha!
We got the chance to talk again during that time because.. he started courting me. We started to text and talk to each other at the wee hour of the night. I enjoyed his company and our conversation. There was even a time when he fetched me around five in the morning so that we can eat breakfast in a 24hour store. I was dead hungry during the time that we were talking and we waited for the gate to be opened by five in the morning and there, we ate. Twas sweet, though. He even treated me. Haha! And we were hiding from my mom because we open our store around six in the morning.
During that time, I was decided already that once he asked me, I'll say yes to him. Yeah, I want to be his girlfriend and I want to give it a try. But then, it was complicated. I still have Shy during that time and he only got a "cool off" with his girlfriend Antsy. So, we lost communication and part ways. I don't want to be with him anymore for I don't want a complicated relationship.
But last month, he started texting me again and trying to revive our communication. He told me he still has a crush on me and he still wants me as a girlfriend. But hell, he's still committed with Antsy. Whenever I want to talk about her, he don't want to. Ha! Maybe he was feeling guilty that he's flirting with me even though he still has a girlfriend.
I do have a boyfriend, of course you know that. But I still want to experience on how to be his girlfriend. Is he sweet? Is he caring? Can he fetch me also from work? Can we always be together? He just live nearby so that might be possible. Hmm.. Does he kiss sweetly? Is he delicious? LMAO. Seriously, I just want to know. I'm just curious. But, I so love my boyfriend. And he don't deserve to be cheated. That's why I just reply to Bleach's text whenever my boyfriend allow me to and that's it.
Now, Bleach and I's communication were back to zero. We don't text anymore. We don't talk anymore. And if ever I'll be seeing him outside, I won't be minding him. I won't even smile to him. It's not being bitter. It's not being shy. I just can't see any reason for me to do that.
But hell, I'm still curious on what's the feeling of him having as a boyfriend? Oh well, it's not our time. Or maybe, we will never have our time to be in a relationship. And I won't be risking my relationship with my boyfriend just because of my curiousity. Bleh =P
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay ay...
.. yakapin mo ako. *sings*
I miss you. After you woke up, you did not text me anymore. You're phone is also out of reach. I kept on texting you, updating you on what is happening to me but there, no reply -- not even a blank message. :(
Woke up this morning around eight, went to our living room and asked my brother to buy breakfast for us. He bought spaghetti and told me that I should eat a lot because my mom told me that I need to do the laundry. It's okay with me because I don't have nothing to do anyway. And weekends here at home means cleaning the room, doing the laundry or going online all day. After taking a medicine for my tooth that aches, I did the laundry together with my mom. Ha! Bonding moment? Ahaha. :)
Doing the laundry was very tiring because my mom is with me. She won't let me leave it all with the power of the washing machine. She wants me to wash also the clothes with my bare hands while the clothes are spinning.
While I was putting the clothes under the sun, the long stick that I was using gave me a bloody hand -- or finger. I need to use the stick (panungkit) because our sampayan is too high. I was not that worried. I just went to our store, got a band aid, cleaned my finger using water then put the band aid. It doesn't hurt anyway, good thing!
After all the things that I need to do, and while I'm doing it, I kept on texting him. Still, no reply. I even texted him that I was hurt but he's still not replying. A while ago, he told me that he'll be doing the laundry also. But their washing machine just needs to be programmed and he don't need to do anymore about it. Then, while watching the television, I tried to call their house but it's busy. That's the time that I only remember that it's Sunday and it's their time to talk to their parents living in United States. That was during 12 in the noon ha? And look, it's almost 2 in the afternoon and still, no trace of him. I'm starting to get paranoid already. So busy that he can't text me? I just need a single message that he's busy and he can't text me as of the moment so that I won't be worrying or get paranoid. Argh. I hate you for not doing it. :(
Oh well, I'll just pretend that I don't have a boyfriend and I'm not worrying at all. But later, once you talk to me, you'll be dead. I'll be cold to you -- your punishment. Bwahahaha. BLEH =P
I miss you.. I'm worrying.. and I hate you for making me feel like this. :(
I miss you. After you woke up, you did not text me anymore. You're phone is also out of reach. I kept on texting you, updating you on what is happening to me but there, no reply -- not even a blank message. :(
Woke up this morning around eight, went to our living room and asked my brother to buy breakfast for us. He bought spaghetti and told me that I should eat a lot because my mom told me that I need to do the laundry. It's okay with me because I don't have nothing to do anyway. And weekends here at home means cleaning the room, doing the laundry or going online all day. After taking a medicine for my tooth that aches, I did the laundry together with my mom. Ha! Bonding moment? Ahaha. :)
Doing the laundry was very tiring because my mom is with me. She won't let me leave it all with the power of the washing machine. She wants me to wash also the clothes with my bare hands while the clothes are spinning.
While I was putting the clothes under the sun, the long stick that I was using gave me a bloody hand -- or finger. I need to use the stick (panungkit) because our sampayan is too high. I was not that worried. I just went to our store, got a band aid, cleaned my finger using water then put the band aid. It doesn't hurt anyway, good thing!
After all the things that I need to do, and while I'm doing it, I kept on texting him. Still, no reply. I even texted him that I was hurt but he's still not replying. A while ago, he told me that he'll be doing the laundry also. But their washing machine just needs to be programmed and he don't need to do anymore about it. Then, while watching the television, I tried to call their house but it's busy. That's the time that I only remember that it's Sunday and it's their time to talk to their parents living in United States. That was during 12 in the noon ha? And look, it's almost 2 in the afternoon and still, no trace of him. I'm starting to get paranoid already. So busy that he can't text me? I just need a single message that he's busy and he can't text me as of the moment so that I won't be worrying or get paranoid. Argh. I hate you for not doing it. :(
Oh well, I'll just pretend that I don't have a boyfriend and I'm not worrying at all. But later, once you talk to me, you'll be dead. I'll be cold to you -- your punishment. Bwahahaha. BLEH =P
I miss you.. I'm worrying.. and I hate you for making me feel like this. :(
Cellphone got lost! :(
Once my boyfriend and I arrived at their place, I was checking my bag and looking for my phone. But I can't seem to find it. X_x He told me that we'll just go inside and search for it. I don't want to go yet because the tryke is still outside and I might dropped it there.. just like before. But he wanted to go inside so I just go with the flow. Once we're at the terrace, it's really not in my bag anymore.. and not even on my pocket! I was in a blank state again -- thinking of what should I do or what should I feel. Hah! I even told him, "Hayaan mo na yun." AMP.
Even before we ride the tryke, I really wanted to pee. So, once he opened the door, I went to his room, put out all of the things in my bag. And yes, it's really not there. So I escaped and went to the CR so that he won't be seeing my reaction. When I was at the CR, I really wanted to cry but I don't want to because it's nonsense. I don't know.. I always think that way. What will happen if I did this? Will I get what I want? Psh.
Once I go out again from the bathroom, I searched again my bag and when I accepted the fact that it's not really there, I just laid my back in the bed. I just let it go. If I meant to loose it, then so be it. It's because of my stupidity anyways.. no one to be blame but me. So I was trying to calm myself.. then he told me that someone texted him using my phone but it was blank. After one blank text, another one came in. So I asked him to call my phone. Then he called and all I can hear was his questions/interrogations like "Where did you get this phone?", "Where are you?". "What place are you staying?", "Jeep?", "Olympia?", "Gate?", "I live nearby, I'll go there."
I was expecting by that moment.. but not much. The last time that we rode a jeep was when we were in Quiapo and there is no jeepney around their subdivision.. come on! I was thinking that the person might have plans of running with my phone and they can easily do that. After my hubby went out of the house to go to the gate, I was praying.. or chanting, I guess? =)) I was saying, "Please, please, give my phone back, Lord. Please. I work hard so that I can buy that. Please, please, please." But I was also telling Him that if He want it that way, so be it. I'll accept that fact. :)
Then I heard the gate that was opened. So I pretended to be sleeping because I don't know what emotion will register in my face. I don't know what will my reaction be after. Then he "woke me up" by giving me my phone. And I was really happy! =)
Oh my dear hubby, you don't know how happy I am. That's why I kept on hugging him and kept on saying Thank You. Hahaha! I'm sooooo glad that he found it again. Good thing the person gave it back. And according to him, it was the guard who got it and it felt at the humps when we were in the tryke once we enter the subdivision. What an incident. But at least, it was found. YAYYY! =D
And my boyfriend gave money to the guard. Hahaha! Nice. :)
Hey, I remember, do you know what's on my phone screen if my boyfriend is calling to me? Err, it's a picture of us. Me in undies and he in sando. And it was just our upper body that was taken ha? But... even though. HAHAHAHA! NAUGHTY ME!
And my boyfriend was even joking me, maybe that's why the person took a long time before he answered the call. Maybe he's still looking at our picture. HAHAHAHAHA! *blushes*
Oh well, guard, thank you!
Especially to you, my dear boyfriend/hubby!
And most especially to You, LORD! :)
Even before we ride the tryke, I really wanted to pee. So, once he opened the door, I went to his room, put out all of the things in my bag. And yes, it's really not there. So I escaped and went to the CR so that he won't be seeing my reaction. When I was at the CR, I really wanted to cry but I don't want to because it's nonsense. I don't know.. I always think that way. What will happen if I did this? Will I get what I want? Psh.
Once I go out again from the bathroom, I searched again my bag and when I accepted the fact that it's not really there, I just laid my back in the bed. I just let it go. If I meant to loose it, then so be it. It's because of my stupidity anyways.. no one to be blame but me. So I was trying to calm myself.. then he told me that someone texted him using my phone but it was blank. After one blank text, another one came in. So I asked him to call my phone. Then he called and all I can hear was his questions/interrogations like "Where did you get this phone?", "Where are you?". "What place are you staying?", "Jeep?", "Olympia?", "Gate?", "I live nearby, I'll go there."
I was expecting by that moment.. but not much. The last time that we rode a jeep was when we were in Quiapo and there is no jeepney around their subdivision.. come on! I was thinking that the person might have plans of running with my phone and they can easily do that. After my hubby went out of the house to go to the gate, I was praying.. or chanting, I guess? =)) I was saying, "Please, please, give my phone back, Lord. Please. I work hard so that I can buy that. Please, please, please." But I was also telling Him that if He want it that way, so be it. I'll accept that fact. :)
Then I heard the gate that was opened. So I pretended to be sleeping because I don't know what emotion will register in my face. I don't know what will my reaction be after. Then he "woke me up" by giving me my phone. And I was really happy! =)
Oh my dear hubby, you don't know how happy I am. That's why I kept on hugging him and kept on saying Thank You. Hahaha! I'm sooooo glad that he found it again. Good thing the person gave it back. And according to him, it was the guard who got it and it felt at the humps when we were in the tryke once we enter the subdivision. What an incident. But at least, it was found. YAYYY! =D
And my boyfriend gave money to the guard. Hahaha! Nice. :)
Hey, I remember, do you know what's on my phone screen if my boyfriend is calling to me? Err, it's a picture of us. Me in undies and he in sando. And it was just our upper body that was taken ha? But... even though. HAHAHAHA! NAUGHTY ME!
And my boyfriend was even joking me, maybe that's why the person took a long time before he answered the call. Maybe he's still looking at our picture. HAHAHAHAHA! *blushes*
Oh well, guard, thank you!
Especially to you, my dear boyfriend/hubby!
And most especially to You, LORD! :)
After all the excitement...
... it all went down to me going home this weekend. :( The feeling sucks. After being excited for five days to be with him again on weekends, we only spent seven hours together. As in S-E-V-E-N hours only versus the 120 hours that I am thinking of and waiting for the moment to come to see him again and be with him again. It really sucks. I HATE IT. But I just can't show it awhile ago because.. I was still in the state of shock. Hah!
So yeah, he fetched me from work after my shift and then we went to Quiapo and we bought blue ray discs -- Slumdog Millionaire, Silence of the Lambs, Eagle Eye and one collection of action/thriller movies. After that, ate breakfast at Jollibee then went to their place.
After some cuddling, I was waiting for him to put the cd on so that we can go and start watching the movie but then, surprise! His Tita will be coming to their place. So I was like, so what we'll be doing? He told me we'll just go to the market and we can just stay in Greenwich for I also want to buy Pearl Coolers. So I said it's fine with me as long as he is with me. He told me that he might come home. And I was like, "You're gonna leave me there? I'll just go home if it will be a hassle." But he don't want me to go for it is not yet sure if he needs to show up to his auntie.
After fixing myself, he went out and his sister told him that their cousins might be sleeping at their place and I can't stay there, of course. I just told him that I'll just be going home. Of course he was shy with the situation because he was caught off guarded and he doesn't know anything about it. And of course, I was also caught off guarded that's why I choose the best thing to do -- run away with a blank face. Like what I told you awhile ago, I was still in a state of shock by then. I don't know what I should feel for the travel to their place almost took us two hours! We even went to Quiapo awhile ago that's why I was dead tired and if I'll be going home, it's like I'm killing my body for the ride and all. ARGGGGHHH.
BUT.. as if I have a choice? I told him I'm not angry. The usual -- I don't want to be angry or to be pissed because I won't be getting what I want even though I'll be angry or whatsoever. I just remained calm. I dunno. I really have this attitude sometimes that I don't want to show him my feelings. Maybe because I already show him before my weaknesses that's why I'm trying to be strong. Hah!
So... I pretended that I am okay and that everything that is happening is fine with me. [sarcastic]It's okay for me to go home even though I'm dead tired and sleepy by that time already. It's okay that I tired myself to go there and just go home after an hour or so. It's really okay. [/sarcastic] In fairness to him, he kept on asking me, "How can I make it up to you?" He was even telling me suggestions like, "I'll be going to your place next week!" But that's Holy Week already and we planned that we won't be seeing each other for they will be spending the holiday to his auntie's place and they will be returning to their place by Sunday. Hassle right? He told me that he'll just go home early so that we can be together. But then, I don't wanna be a wall to their holidays together. If that's their plan, so be it. I don't want his sisters to think that his life is revolving on me that I might be bad influence to their brother. Talk about image. Hah!
I also told him that I don't have money by that time because our salary will be out by next Monday and not before weekends. He told me he'll borrow money. Hah! I don't want him to. I don't want to create hassle to him. I don't know if I'm shy or.. I really don't want him to suffer to anything that is relating to me.
So, until I came home, I pretended everything is fine until I'll be fine.
Anyway, we talked already awhile ago. Our relationship is back on smooth sailing because he was so sweet once we talked. He was telling me that he can smell me at his room as if I'm just there. He was even joking that he'll just imagine the pillow besides him to be me but once he hugged it, he can't help it anymore. He really can't feel it because there's no boobs. Hahahaha! NAUGHTY!
Oh well, hopes everything will fall to its right place already. Yeah, weekends suck if I'm not with him but I'll just be thinking that there's so many weekends that we can share together anyway. :)
So yeah, he fetched me from work after my shift and then we went to Quiapo and we bought blue ray discs -- Slumdog Millionaire, Silence of the Lambs, Eagle Eye and one collection of action/thriller movies. After that, ate breakfast at Jollibee then went to their place.
After some cuddling, I was waiting for him to put the cd on so that we can go and start watching the movie but then, surprise! His Tita will be coming to their place. So I was like, so what we'll be doing? He told me we'll just go to the market and we can just stay in Greenwich for I also want to buy Pearl Coolers. So I said it's fine with me as long as he is with me. He told me that he might come home. And I was like, "You're gonna leave me there? I'll just go home if it will be a hassle." But he don't want me to go for it is not yet sure if he needs to show up to his auntie.
After fixing myself, he went out and his sister told him that their cousins might be sleeping at their place and I can't stay there, of course. I just told him that I'll just be going home. Of course he was shy with the situation because he was caught off guarded and he doesn't know anything about it. And of course, I was also caught off guarded that's why I choose the best thing to do -- run away with a blank face. Like what I told you awhile ago, I was still in a state of shock by then. I don't know what I should feel for the travel to their place almost took us two hours! We even went to Quiapo awhile ago that's why I was dead tired and if I'll be going home, it's like I'm killing my body for the ride and all. ARGGGGHHH.
BUT.. as if I have a choice? I told him I'm not angry. The usual -- I don't want to be angry or to be pissed because I won't be getting what I want even though I'll be angry or whatsoever. I just remained calm. I dunno. I really have this attitude sometimes that I don't want to show him my feelings. Maybe because I already show him before my weaknesses that's why I'm trying to be strong. Hah!
So... I pretended that I am okay and that everything that is happening is fine with me. [sarcastic]It's okay for me to go home even though I'm dead tired and sleepy by that time already. It's okay that I tired myself to go there and just go home after an hour or so. It's really okay. [/sarcastic] In fairness to him, he kept on asking me, "How can I make it up to you?" He was even telling me suggestions like, "I'll be going to your place next week!" But that's Holy Week already and we planned that we won't be seeing each other for they will be spending the holiday to his auntie's place and they will be returning to their place by Sunday. Hassle right? He told me that he'll just go home early so that we can be together. But then, I don't wanna be a wall to their holidays together. If that's their plan, so be it. I don't want his sisters to think that his life is revolving on me that I might be bad influence to their brother. Talk about image. Hah!
I also told him that I don't have money by that time because our salary will be out by next Monday and not before weekends. He told me he'll borrow money. Hah! I don't want him to. I don't want to create hassle to him. I don't know if I'm shy or.. I really don't want him to suffer to anything that is relating to me.
So, until I came home, I pretended everything is fine until I'll be fine.
Anyway, we talked already awhile ago. Our relationship is back on smooth sailing because he was so sweet once we talked. He was telling me that he can smell me at his room as if I'm just there. He was even joking that he'll just imagine the pillow besides him to be me but once he hugged it, he can't help it anymore. He really can't feel it because there's no boobs. Hahahaha! NAUGHTY!
Oh well, hopes everything will fall to its right place already. Yeah, weekends suck if I'm not with him but I'll just be thinking that there's so many weekends that we can share together anyway. :)
Thursday, April 2, 2009
20 hours...
.. more or less, that's the time I still need to wait to be with you again. At least, one more day and I'll be seeing my hubby again. YAYYY! :D
Fridays still bring butterflies to my stomach. A kind of feeling that I'm looking forward for my work shift and how fast it will end -- for that's the time that you'll be fetching me from work. Almost two-hour journey, and you still ain't tired going to work just to be with me on the way to your house. Isn't it a hassle to wake up early in the morning just to go to my work place? It's a journey.. really. And what we really do once we meet is to walk a very long way just to get to the highway, steal kisses from each other and sleep while on the way. Hahaha! Good thing you ain't tired yet.. lucky me! =D
When will I grow tired of you? I dunno. I can't see myself as of now. Of course, I don't want to say it with a period at the end for we will never know what will happen. Just like what they say, before, you cannot see yourself living without each other but little by little you're living the way it is now. Ironic, isn't it? But that's how life is. And I have learned to accept that. Err, still learning. I really don't want to think of negative things about us.. like we won't end up together, one will be unfaithful, etc.
Even though we always text each other, I don't mind and I'm still not sick of it. Anyways, I'm only texting you during the night while you are sleeping and you're texting me during the morning that I am sleeping. How can we be tired of each other that way? Eh we don't have a normal text convo? Hahaha!
Yes, once I woke up in the evening, we will chat until it's time for me to fix myself to go to work. But I still love to hear your voice. I love making fun of you.. and laughing together. I love how you tell stories or how you surprise me by singing after being silent. I love the way you sing to me whenever I requests you to and whenever you sing again when I warned you before that I only want you to sing one song! HAHAHAHA! I love those moments.. and I haven't grew tired of it... yet(?).
I still love seeing you during the weekends.. for that is the only time that we can see each other. That's the only time of the week that I can hug you oh-so-tight and I can steal so many kisses. The only time that I'll be prisoned in your arms that I just wanna stay that way forever.
Weekends. The moment that I will be experiencing like we are living already in a same roof. The feeling like we're husband and wife already. You'll prepare our breakfast, I'll wash the dishes. I go online or text with my friends, you'll be playing with your PSP but we're still beside each other. Cuddling forever.. until we sleep at each other arms...
Oh weekends, I'm excited! Can you come faster than you can? Can you bring my love already? Ohh.. I'm hopeless. HAHAHAHA!
PITY YOU. You still got me tangled up with you. :)
Fridays still bring butterflies to my stomach. A kind of feeling that I'm looking forward for my work shift and how fast it will end -- for that's the time that you'll be fetching me from work. Almost two-hour journey, and you still ain't tired going to work just to be with me on the way to your house. Isn't it a hassle to wake up early in the morning just to go to my work place? It's a journey.. really. And what we really do once we meet is to walk a very long way just to get to the highway, steal kisses from each other and sleep while on the way. Hahaha! Good thing you ain't tired yet.. lucky me! =D
When will I grow tired of you? I dunno. I can't see myself as of now. Of course, I don't want to say it with a period at the end for we will never know what will happen. Just like what they say, before, you cannot see yourself living without each other but little by little you're living the way it is now. Ironic, isn't it? But that's how life is. And I have learned to accept that. Err, still learning. I really don't want to think of negative things about us.. like we won't end up together, one will be unfaithful, etc.
Even though we always text each other, I don't mind and I'm still not sick of it. Anyways, I'm only texting you during the night while you are sleeping and you're texting me during the morning that I am sleeping. How can we be tired of each other that way? Eh we don't have a normal text convo? Hahaha!
Yes, once I woke up in the evening, we will chat until it's time for me to fix myself to go to work. But I still love to hear your voice. I love making fun of you.. and laughing together. I love how you tell stories or how you surprise me by singing after being silent. I love the way you sing to me whenever I requests you to and whenever you sing again when I warned you before that I only want you to sing one song! HAHAHAHA! I love those moments.. and I haven't grew tired of it... yet(?).
I still love seeing you during the weekends.. for that is the only time that we can see each other. That's the only time of the week that I can hug you oh-so-tight and I can steal so many kisses. The only time that I'll be prisoned in your arms that I just wanna stay that way forever.
Weekends. The moment that I will be experiencing like we are living already in a same roof. The feeling like we're husband and wife already. You'll prepare our breakfast, I'll wash the dishes. I go online or text with my friends, you'll be playing with your PSP but we're still beside each other. Cuddling forever.. until we sleep at each other arms...
Oh weekends, I'm excited! Can you come faster than you can? Can you bring my love already? Ohh.. I'm hopeless. HAHAHAHA!
PITY YOU. You still got me tangled up with you. :)
Girl Love
"Sabi ko, kinukwento ko sayo lahat ng kalokohan ko. Tapos sabi ko kunsintidor ka. Haha! Tapos sabi ko mahal na mahal kita na bestfriend ko. Haha!"
My dear ex-girlfriend/bestfriend sent me that message a while ago. Yeah, we were texting and I was the one who initiated the conversation. I was being bothered already with Kiss (not her real name, of course) who kept on talking to me about her -- my dear ex-girlfriend. Okay, let's give my ex a pseudo name like... Shy.
Shy is my one and only girlfriend.. or the only one that I counted in. Okay, I do have another girl before, let's call her Mean but Shy and I always refer to her as "neglected" because I don't really count her as one of my past girl. On what I do know, and that I do accept, is that I only have one girl.. Shy.
My relationship with Shy lasted for two and a half years.. and it ended last March 2008. My relationship with her was the longest one and I do acknowledge the fact that I had the hard(est!) time moving on and letting go of her.. an almost three year relationship is not a joke after all!
So, we're okay now and we're still the best of friends.. but definitely, there are things that changed already. We're not that close anymore but we still keep on updating each other. Maybe that's really how is it.
And there is this new girl in her life -- Kiss. She's actually a friend of ours. I know Kiss first through online and then Shy got to know her and they became closer. Until Shy kept on telling me that Kiss is pretty and she really wants Kiss to be her girl. So, I just go ahead and supported her. Shy has been thinking that I might be jealous or that it might not be fine with me because Kiss is both our friend. But with what's happening with my love life? I can't be bitter or selfish anymore. I am happy now and she deserves that kind of happiness too.
But something came up that makes them go farther from each other. Suddenly, their closeness goes to not talking to each other. Oh yeah, it was Shy who is not talking to her. *Sigh*
Finally, when I talked to her, I know now on what seems to be the problem. She don't want Kiss anymore because she's not a cowboy. She's don't want to ride a jeepney, too much hassle when with her, etc. And she just can't stand her -- all of a sudden. Oh well, there are so many things that you will know about a person once you get to know them or be with them for a longer period.
I was telling Shy awhile ago to have the heart to tell Kiss that she don't want her anymore. It's like being fair.. even though she'll be hurting Kiss' feelings. And guess what? Shy have another flirting buddy -- the ex-girlfriend of Kiss. Bittersweet, isn't it? Sigh.
Too much hassle. Too much issue. That's it for now.
Ssssshhhh! :P
My dear ex-girlfriend/bestfriend sent me that message a while ago. Yeah, we were texting and I was the one who initiated the conversation. I was being bothered already with Kiss (not her real name, of course) who kept on talking to me about her -- my dear ex-girlfriend. Okay, let's give my ex a pseudo name like... Shy.
Shy is my one and only girlfriend.. or the only one that I counted in. Okay, I do have another girl before, let's call her Mean but Shy and I always refer to her as "neglected" because I don't really count her as one of my past girl. On what I do know, and that I do accept, is that I only have one girl.. Shy.
My relationship with Shy lasted for two and a half years.. and it ended last March 2008. My relationship with her was the longest one and I do acknowledge the fact that I had the hard(est!) time moving on and letting go of her.. an almost three year relationship is not a joke after all!
So, we're okay now and we're still the best of friends.. but definitely, there are things that changed already. We're not that close anymore but we still keep on updating each other. Maybe that's really how is it.
And there is this new girl in her life -- Kiss. She's actually a friend of ours. I know Kiss first through online and then Shy got to know her and they became closer. Until Shy kept on telling me that Kiss is pretty and she really wants Kiss to be her girl. So, I just go ahead and supported her. Shy has been thinking that I might be jealous or that it might not be fine with me because Kiss is both our friend. But with what's happening with my love life? I can't be bitter or selfish anymore. I am happy now and she deserves that kind of happiness too.
But something came up that makes them go farther from each other. Suddenly, their closeness goes to not talking to each other. Oh yeah, it was Shy who is not talking to her. *Sigh*
Finally, when I talked to her, I know now on what seems to be the problem. She don't want Kiss anymore because she's not a cowboy. She's don't want to ride a jeepney, too much hassle when with her, etc. And she just can't stand her -- all of a sudden. Oh well, there are so many things that you will know about a person once you get to know them or be with them for a longer period.
I was telling Shy awhile ago to have the heart to tell Kiss that she don't want her anymore. It's like being fair.. even though she'll be hurting Kiss' feelings. And guess what? Shy have another flirting buddy -- the ex-girlfriend of Kiss. Bittersweet, isn't it? Sigh.
Too much hassle. Too much issue. That's it for now.
Ssssshhhh! :P
Intro
Okay, we do know that this is a secret blog and there are information about myself that I will keep as a secret.. like my name. Just call me "L".. and guess what does that stands for? Hmmm.. L for love? lust? libido? lies? life? laugh? Haha. Sounds familiar -- Live. Laugh. Love. I see that statement everywhere ah! Oh well.. maybe L stands for my first name. THE USUAL. But I won't be really confessing.. just weigh it out if I'm saying the truth or not. :P
I am 20 years young and will be turning a year older this year, 2009. Working already but not working that hard.. just enjoying it and the money it gives. There's so many lies in my life that I was thinking that I've been living in lies ever since. I was like a child teaching myself to believe to things that are good.. or making others believe that everything will be fine. Living in lies or just being optimistic? Oh well, I think another blog deserves that topic.
I am not single therefore, I am being doubled. LOL. I have a boyfriend, younger than me for a year, and I oh love him so much! He was actually the first reason on why am I making this particular blogspot. I was thinking of putting here the things that I am thinking.. that is mostly about him. Haha! Yeah, love addicted much. And I don't wanna flood my Multiply account anymore with all of it. I know my friends are quite tired already seeing pictures of us and me telling all of those stories. Hahaha! It's not new to me.. but whatever I am experiencing with him.. it's always new. It's like I always fall in love with him. Hahaha! Oh well, stop it. Another blog should be dedicated for my current hubby. Ahaha. Take note of the word "current". LOL
I love talking.. and writing. Hello? That's why my blog's name is blabbermouth. I love gossiping and I love sharing things/stories! I am just not your type of writer -- those who can really write stories and poems. I am only a writer in the sense that I can write my own story -- story of my life, I mean. And this is kinda a practice to the medium I am using. Badly need it. Hahaha!
So, that's it for now. :) There's so many things that I want to write but it's all mixed up in my mind like teaching, love, ex, friends, school, parents, etc. So let's just do it one by one. Just bare with me dear blog. Just be there and don't hung up on me. :P
I am 20 years young and will be turning a year older this year, 2009. Working already but not working that hard.. just enjoying it and the money it gives. There's so many lies in my life that I was thinking that I've been living in lies ever since. I was like a child teaching myself to believe to things that are good.. or making others believe that everything will be fine. Living in lies or just being optimistic? Oh well, I think another blog deserves that topic.
I am not single therefore, I am being doubled. LOL. I have a boyfriend, younger than me for a year, and I oh love him so much! He was actually the first reason on why am I making this particular blogspot. I was thinking of putting here the things that I am thinking.. that is mostly about him. Haha! Yeah, love addicted much. And I don't wanna flood my Multiply account anymore with all of it. I know my friends are quite tired already seeing pictures of us and me telling all of those stories. Hahaha! It's not new to me.. but whatever I am experiencing with him.. it's always new. It's like I always fall in love with him. Hahaha! Oh well, stop it. Another blog should be dedicated for my current hubby. Ahaha. Take note of the word "current". LOL
I love talking.. and writing. Hello? That's why my blog's name is blabbermouth. I love gossiping and I love sharing things/stories! I am just not your type of writer -- those who can really write stories and poems. I am only a writer in the sense that I can write my own story -- story of my life, I mean. And this is kinda a practice to the medium I am using. Badly need it. Hahaha!
So, that's it for now. :) There's so many things that I want to write but it's all mixed up in my mind like teaching, love, ex, friends, school, parents, etc. So let's just do it one by one. Just bare with me dear blog. Just be there and don't hung up on me. :P
Secret Start
Okay, so I decided to make a new blog. A very simple blog that I don't wanna personalize like putting my pictures and such so that people won't be knowing who am I. Hahaha!
How to live a secret life? How to put a secret blog? How to keep it up? How can a blabbermouth like me can go ahead and tell tales without telling who I really am? Just wondering.. and thinking that this would be an exciting start. Hahaha!
I'm not making any scene here. First, there's no audience at all for I won't be giving my url to anybody. Second, I won't be going around every blog just to loiter so that they will go ahead and be curious about me and try to check my blog. Not much of an attention-seeker this time.. for a change.
Hopefully, I can shut my mouth and not tell anybody that I have this kind of blog. And I do wish that I won't be forgetting about this blog. Hahaha! I might keep it as a top secret that even myself can't remember it anymore. LOL
That's all for the secret start. Sssshhh. :P
How to live a secret life? How to put a secret blog? How to keep it up? How can a blabbermouth like me can go ahead and tell tales without telling who I really am? Just wondering.. and thinking that this would be an exciting start. Hahaha!
I'm not making any scene here. First, there's no audience at all for I won't be giving my url to anybody. Second, I won't be going around every blog just to loiter so that they will go ahead and be curious about me and try to check my blog. Not much of an attention-seeker this time.. for a change.
Hopefully, I can shut my mouth and not tell anybody that I have this kind of blog. And I do wish that I won't be forgetting about this blog. Hahaha! I might keep it as a top secret that even myself can't remember it anymore. LOL
That's all for the secret start. Sssshhh. :P
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