I just need him right now... badly. ='(

Excerpt from my text convo with my dear sweetcheeks...


ME: Why do I always get disappointed by my situation with Rai if it's our fucking monthsary? ='( Nakakawalang gana. Amf.

Sweetcheeks: What happened?

ME: Wala lang. Sabi niya, magkikita kami ng tuesday. Namove ng thursday. Tapos ngayon, saturday na lang daw. Fuck. Ayoko na. Taena.

Sweetcheeks: Baka busy?

ME: Uunga. Studies. At nakakairita ung feeling na wala kang laban at wala kang magawa. Taena. Studies un e. Alangan naman sabihin mo, wak na siya pumunta dun sa company study nila. Haayy..

Sweetcheeks: Eh un naman pala sweetcheeks. Di ba? Intindihin mo na lang. Kasi important talaga un.

ME: Nakakadisappoint lang.. Uu, gets ko, studies un e. Pero wala lang.. Minsan, gusto kong maging selfish.. I just need him right now.. badly. ='( And it's not just because it's our monthsary.. Haayy.. Everything around me just fucked up. Tapos, parang siya na lang pinanghahawakan ko, wala pa.. Nakakadisappoint. I just feel so alone. ='( Even though I know I got you guys, iba syempre pag si Rai.. Haayyy...