I don't understand.

It's Saturday, my RD and I'm at home. Why? Why am I here? Why am I still awake? I should be sleeping by now. And I'm very much tempted to sleep already.. and to wake up tomorrow evening! Eat dinner and then, will just sleep again `til it's Monday already and I just need to go to work.

*sigh*

I just want this weekend to END.

DATE: Bowling and Church-hopping

Manila Cathedral

Churches are structures who are being given a lot of effort and design.. architecturally (if there is such a word). It's very seldom that you'll see an ugly church because of course, that's a place of worship. I wanna go to a lot of known church here in Manila and in the province! I'm actually planning to a create an album once R and I started to go around the churches! Maybe we'll start on Holy Week.. if ever that there won't be any change of plans. :)

As for bowling, last night, since my shift was 10pm-10am (oh yeah, 12-hour shift!), I was dashing to Greenhills by 930pm and was caught in the traffic around Rob Galleria. Then, I saw it on neon lightnings, "PAENG SKY BOWL". Oh, another first! I WANT ANOTHER FIRST!! I wanna try bowling.. with him! We're thinking of inviting friends for this since we both don't know how to play the game. I can imagine how happy it can be once we're teasing each other on how we score with bowling. That'll be fun! Another date to look forward! =D

And hey, our Fun Run date will finally happen already on Sunday! Weeeeeee! I'll update you about it ASAP! ;)

Abused.

"O, parang lagi ka na lang late nakakauwi ah. Di ka na nakakaalis ng 10am sa office niyo."

That was what my boyfriend said.. or to that effect awhile ago once I called him on my phone. I ended up staying at the office until 12nn and due to me trying to finish everything's on my hand.

As a lot of people do know about me at work, I'm currently during a Real Time Analyst (RTA) and a Coach task. I'm a certified RTA, yes. But I'm not yet a certified coach. As much as everyone wanted me to be a coach already, and of course I wanted it as well, I'm not yet certified. Actually, I'm not even a trainee. I'm still waiting for my Behavioral Interview.. and I'm not ready about that one, too. Good thing, it's not yet being scheduled but they said that they want me to rush about it already. =s

I wanna be a coach. I almost perfected my RTA job already that they do rely on me when it comes to that part of my job even though I have my partner.. because as arrogant as I may sound, even if my partner will resign, the production won't stop because I'm there. But if I'll resign, or will be out for a long time, they will be in a chaos. Hehehe! Actually, it happened already. That's why my boss was asking me before on when will I be back because they need me.. oha. ;)

Going back..

I'm getting tired already. I'm fine with doing everything that I can. They can give me a lot of things to do and I can still manage. But I can't go on like this. If I'm the coach, fine with me. Even though there's a lot of things on a shoulder of a coach, I'll do it -- as long as you pay me as you pay a coach. If not, let me just go back to being full time RTA. At least, I know what I'm expected to do and I'm able to help out the production even though I don't need to because being an RTA isn't that much as a coach. Sometimes, I really just ask for some job so that I'll have productive time. But with me being with a coach post? Please don't expect everything from me.

I am not always superwoman. I am human.

(But hey, don't get me wrong.. I still love my job. Just give me a job that is equivalent to my pay.)

Vacation Affair

Two brokenhearted person meet abroad and found themselves in love with each other. Quite possible right? Especially if they are both lonely.. but what if persons in there real life will be back to their lives even before vacation ends? Isn't that quite hard?

Hmm.. Now I'm thinking about Bleach. He can always give me shivers in one way or another but no one can beat R's place in my heart. My feelings for him won't be transferred to any other person or won't even be close to that. But before I go deeper into that, let me just share what happened Friday night..

As I leave home for my last day of work last week.. I passed by Bleach and his friends. Actually, I wasn't able to see him and did not dare to look as well. I just know that he was there because his friends were teasing him about me. And then, when I'm already at the corner where cabs passed by, I received a message from him..

"Kumpleto na ulit araw ko kasi nakita kita.. -bleach"

And yes, I admit it, that put a smile on my face. I replied saying,

"Wala ka pala e.. Di mo kayang lumapit sa kin e."

Which he replied with..

"Waaaaa. Mukha kasing nagmamadali ka e. =("

And then I replied,

"Excuses. Sige, work na ko. Good night!"

Actually, those lines weren't the exact lines since I had it deleted already on my phone.

Which made me think that.. is it just coincidence or fate? I don't have his number and I did not save it after he texted me -- which explains why he put his name on the last part of his first text to me. And then, I totally forgot about it before I cleaned up my inbox and sent items last night. I guess it's really not meant to be. This is not really the right time for us.. if ever that we will really have that time.

Going back.. During that time, I can't help myself but to be flattered and smile until I got to work. But I guess, that's just it. After all the butterflies are gone, you'll go back to your real life. Just like what I said at the first paragraph of this entry. At the end of the day, or that so-called vacation, it all boils down to you whether to pursue that "affair" or go back to what you've left before.

For me, I will always go back to R just as like what I've promised. As what I've told my friends at work and to myself, "Minsan, gusto mo lang lumandi to feel that you're still beautiful because other people can still appreciate you and see your physical beauty. But at the end of the day, I will still and always go back to R. That's just it. ^_^" And true to my words, I picked seeing R in the morning, after my shift, and spent my Saturday with him. I may not be that girl that you expect to be faithful with a guy, coz my Mom said I'm like my Dad who's a playboy, but I am loyal.. I only have R in my heart.

Oh.. girls!

Girl: If you caught your girlfriend lying to you, would you break up with her?

Boy: How do you want me to answer?

*girl gave boy a confused look*

Boy: It's hard to understand what a woman really wants.

If I say the wrong thing, you'll be mad at me, them I'm assed out again.

Girl: It's not that difficult.

Have you ever listened to Parn Thanaporn's song?

Boy: Parn Thanaporn?

Girl: I think the lyrics are extremely deep.

It goes.. women don't like watching football

but will watch to be by your side.

We might not know how to wear make-up

but will always push a little brush on for you to see.

*a scene from Hello Stranger ;)

Crazy Little Thing Called Love (Thai Movie)

You just have to watch this!

It's a Thai movie.. that was posted by my friend. Actually, I saw it as well on my laptop but decided to not mind it. But since I've read a lot of good comments about this, I decided to watch it this morning since I can't sleep anymore -- yeah, at 5 am in the morning, my bed don't want me anymore!

Anyhoo, it was all worthy. It's really a nice movie! Kilig, funny and a feel-good movie! ^^

For three years, I have done everything. I changed because of you. I applied for classical dancing club, I acted on a play, I became a drum major, I studied harder — it’s all because of you. But now I know, the thing I should have done instead — the only thing I should have done a long time ago — is tell you that… I love you.

A Crazy Little Thing Called Love

How Time Flies..

Thanks to Facebook, you'll be able to see your friends before or those who you've interacted with before. So, as I was browsing this group that I was included with, my first year section in a state university in college, I was looking into everybody else's profile. Instant reaction of a person wanting to know what happen to this person and that after not seeing each other for a long time.

Then, a random guy posted something on that group, or so I thought. And then it just hit me, hey, that was my so-called "crush" before. Ooohhh! Long time no see!

We weren't close even before. He was my crush back then just for the sake of having a crush and just for the sake of having an inspiration to go to school. Y'know the feeling that you're just lazy going to school and you need to have a reason? He was what I called "reason" before. It wasn't really a die-hard crush.. I just liked him because he's so quiet and mysterious. I don't know what's with girls who really like mysterious type of person.

Moving on, I was flabbergasted when I saw this on his profile picture...

The kid's so cute!! I thought he's like a baby of his cousin or sibling.. but apparently, the kid's his. I just can't imagine he was capable of that. Not that he looks like "baog" or something but he wasn't the kind of person that you'll be thinking that he'll be the first to have a baby on our batch. Y'know that thought when you were just in high school or college that you'll be naming people that you think will be a doctor or lawyer someday.. or someone who will be the first to get married or pregnant.. those kind. :))

Hmm.. This is just a proof that the guy has good genes! Hehe! And hey, I saw his recent picture, he looks more attractive than before. Why do people really change appearances after 5 years or so? Haha! I wonder if those people will gonna say the same thing to me.. because according to my uncle, nothing changed to my features back when I was a child. Hmmm..

The Perfect Girlfriend

posted by: Monica Lara Gamboa

Yes, she exists. And no, she’s NOT the supermodel type with the long legs and perfect skin.

She’s even BETTER. She’s the type of girl that looks BORING, the one you’d overlook

—she’d be your LAST choice.

At worst she’s insecure, clingy, shallow, jealous, nagging, sensitive, dramatic, emotional and annoying. But if you can’t handle her at her worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve her at her best.

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So, what is a "PERFECT GIRLFRIEND"?

They say there’s no such thing as perfection and that she doesn’t exist. Oh trust me, SHE DOES.

She dresses up all cute and pretty every time YOU take her out on a date. This is her way of keeping YOU interested as your eyes are locked solely on her. You stare at other girls instead, and she gets hurt and upset that all her time and effort were put to waste.

YOU CALL HER = INSECURE.

She holds on to YOU like she’s never letting YOU go. This is her way of telling other girls that she’s lucky that she has YOU, and no, YOU’re not available.

YOU CALL HER = CLINGY.

She calls YOU the sweetest nicknames, or ones that only YOU two will understand. This is her way of saying how special YOU are, and that there’s nobody else in this world like YOU. You call other girls “BABE” just as how YOU would call her, and she gets disappointed.

YOU CALL HER = SHALLOW AND JEALOUS.

She checks up on YOU, making sure YOU made it home safely or that YOU’re not out getting yourself into any kind of trouble. This is her way of showing how often she thinks about YOU and that she worries constantly because that’s how much she cares.

YOU SAY SHE’S "NAGGING."

She cries when YOU do or say something wrong. This is her way of saying “that hurts only because YOU said it and I LOVE YOU.”

YOU CALL HER = OVERLY SENSITIVE AND EMOTIONAL.

She loves YOU more than YOU love her. This is her way of dealing with the FACT that your relationship wasn’t like how it used to be.

YOU CALL HER = DRAMATIC AND ANNOYING.

So go ahead. Leave the insecure, clingy, jealous, nagging, OVERLY SENSITIVE, annoying girl. She will soon be much happier in the arms of someone who actually deserves her: the PERFECT boyfriend.

Credits to Belle de Jour website

Date A Girl Who Reads by Rosemarie Urquico

(In Response to Charles Warnke’s You Should Date An Illiterate Girl.)

Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.

People Power 1

If there was Facebook during People Power 1, this is what it would look like:

http://images.gmanews.tv/downloads/peoplepower-facebook/

Nice read! *thumbs up!*

Valentine's Weekend! [Part 1]

It's much better if I'll be thinking of the weekend that passed than to think of what happened yesterday. =|

Friday - Spent the afternoon at their place, trying to take care of him. After I posted the blog before this, I gave my number to Bleach and R texted me asking me to go their place. Whew! Talk about destiny. Haha! Oh well, he did not text me even though I already gave him my number. Idk why and I don't wanna think about it. What important is, it made me realize that I'm only for R.. as much as I wanna "try" Bleach to be my boyfriend. (Di kaya ko saktan ng boyfriend ko pag nabasa niya to??) Alam mo ung, pag may naisip kang kainin, natatakam ka? Tapos pag di mo natikman, mapupunta siya sa likod ng isip mo pero matatakam ka pa rin.. bigla-bigla na lang susulpot sa isipan mo ung pagkagusto mo sa kanya.. anggang sa matikman mo. ^^ O, seryoso ako ah. Parang bastos pagkakadescribe ko pero, seryoso un. Ganun siya sa kin. I'm curious about him.. and his mysteriousness makes me crave for more attention and conversation with him. I'm contented but I'm not. I'm happy but I'm chill. But I will never replace R. Hanggang isip lang lahat un. Di pwedeng mangyari.. di pwede tikman. Hehehe!

So, Friday shift, I came in late at work.. almost 2am, I guess? But I told my boss that I was late because my boyfriend is sick. They know him anyway.. and they know that I won't be late just because of some update or anything. It's not usual for me to be late, anyway. I just had a history of AWOL with the company during my birthday week last 2009. Hah! Remember the one that I post here back then? Oh, memories... :)

Saturday - I woke him up early coz I'll be out at 10am. Guess what? He told me he'll arrive at work by 12nn. =| But I tried to understand him.. since he was sick. I finish all the things that I can finish that day. All's well that ends well. We passed by Megamall to eat some ice cream (Angelati) that looks like pupu! Hehehe! And then, I bought him a Pugod Baboy book in case he'll get bored. Then.. go home galore.

5pm - play about Egypt. It was fun being with him. It's like the guy in "I love you, Beth Cooper!" The guy's a nerd in a fun way.. like you're enjoying because you're learning a lot of things because of him and you're not being insecure that he got more brains than you. That's how R is. He got a lot of knowledge in his head that it's always fun being with him. I kid him sometimes when I have a question that he cannot answer.. "Dapat alam mo, kasi itatanong ko sa'yo!" I always expect him already to know the answer to my questions. Haha! Talino e. :P

After watching the play, bought some DVD in Quiapo and then went home. Once we arrived home, know what happened? BORLOGS. Ang pagkakatanda ko na lang, humiga ako sa kama, katabi ko siya, nagbabasa.. habang naglalaptop ung kapatid ko. Pag gising ko, umaga na! Pfft. No more time for flirting or for my favorite part of the day.. ang madaling araw na mangangalabit ako! :))

To be continued.. super antok!!

Someone from the past.

Habang tumatagal ang pag-uusap namin, lalo akong madaming nalalaman. =s

Last time that I got the chance to talk to him was eons ago. 1 or 2 years ago, I guess? Ung usap talaga, 2 years ata? Or going 3 years? Basta, wala pa kong trabaho nun. Bummer pa. :))

I've heard a lot about him after that. Friend ko siya sa Friendster tapos friend ko ngayon sa Facebook simula ng nauso un. Friend ko din sa YM kaya pag nagsesend ng mass message, nasesendan din niya ko. Sa mga ganung paraan lang ung mga bagay na alam ko sa kanya after nung nawala ung communication namin. Then suddenly, his friends keep on telling me that he wants to get my number. I dunno why and I'm getting curious. So I check him out in FB and he's on Single status. But... pinagsisigawan naman sa buong FB community ang In A Relationship status ko di ba? So imposible naman siguro maging interested siya ulit sa kin? On second thought, we were close during the time that they "broke up". Malaman laman ko, di naman sila nag-break. Ano kaya ung ngayon? Ano kayang meron? Natetempt tuloy akong ibigay na sa kanya ung number ko. =s

At na-badtrip ako! Pumunta daw si Air dito last week at nakipag-inuman sa kanila. Di man lang nagparamdam sa kin! Tapos sabi sa kin, ako daw pakay. Asus. Ewan. Not a real big issue pero syempre gusto ko naman makita ung tao. It's been.. 5 years ata? Pero wala. Hmp.

Tummmmmy!

As much as anybody else disagrees with me, I'm getting bigger. :( It doesn't show yet on my outside appearance but if you'll look closely on my tummy, it's getting bigger. :( Or maybe all of my fats are going to my tummy? Wahehe.

According to one of the coaches at work, it all starts with the tummy. After the tummy gets fat, it will be the arms. Most likely, my body won't be proportionally big in an instant. But it's just kinda weird to me.. or maybe because I dunno anything about it since I had never been fat. Hehehe!

I don't know if I'll be conscious already since it's not really a big deal if I gain some fat. I just wish that it doesn't all go to my tummy, right? I still wanna wear two-piece swimsuit! I never had a problem about wearing one even before. But if my tummy will be somewhat saggy or big, I believe anybody who will be seeing it will be turn off instead of giving me a sexy whistle. =|

Argh! Too conscious of my body!! Maybe because summer's just around the corner. Pfft! And my clothes.. they are constant reminders to me! Just like last night, I was having a hard time on wearing pants that I decided to just wear a balloon dress. Whew! Pants, shorts, and such nowadays are hard to put on AND to zip up! :(

Am I really getting fatter bigger?

Oh well, I don't think so. My clothes are just getting smaller. ;)

Blackberry Temptation!

Tried browsing at Globe for some Blackberry plan. And hell, I'm being tempted already! I'm not sure if my budget will allow me to but.. I guess. =D

If I start thinking about it, I'll be done paying off the washing machine by March -- that's P800 off! I can really use that budget for my phone. I've been using my phone for 2 years already.. since I started working! So, with 1k off from my budget every month, I think that will do me fine. BUT.. it's not a necessity.. not a need. I don't need a new phone. I just WANT it. Therefore, I'll think a lot more about it first. =| I think I'd rather splurge it with a lot of dates with R than for the phone. But shouldn't I be thinking of myself first? Oh darn it, whatever. I'll think (a lot!) about it first. Pending! I might just be wanting it for now just because BB is so "in" nowadays. Hehehehe!

Hot Air Balloon

Boo! One couple that I do know will be going to Clark this coming weekend to join the 16th Hot Air Balloon! Part of their Valentine date? Boo!!!

Boo! Mom got free tickets from office to join this as well since their company will be sponsoring the event. She'll be going there this Saturday with her officemates! Boo!!

Boo! My former coach joined the event last year and will be joining again this year! He'll be there on Sunday. Boo!!

Boo all you people coming there! Coz I can't come!!!! :( Oh well, I can't afford it as of the moment. I'm fully-booked already! And I don't wanna go there without a car.. meaning, need more money for gas and all! PFFT.

Oh well, I just hope that I'll remember to join the event next year.. with R! I wish! Kami pa kaya nun? ^^

I Heart You Pare.

Boy: Tingin mo, ano pinag-aawayan nila.

Girl: Aba malay ko. Pero alam mo, sa tingin ko, kasalanan ng lalaki.

B: O, lalaki agad. Malay mo kasalanan din ng babae. Malay mo may agreement sila, may pinag-uusapan sila, sabay hindi tumupad ung babae.

G: E sino ba ung umiiyak? Ung babae di ba? Siguro may ginawang mali ung lalaki kaya nasaktan ung girl.

B: Hindi.. kasi style niyong mga babae yan. Iiyak iyak kayo. Woman cry to get what they want. Di ba?

G: Of course not. Anong akala niyo sa `min? Mga artista? Sensitive lang kami.

B: Sensitive? Ano yun, nana?

G: Nana? Bakit naman nana? Hindi noh.. Ano lang kami, madali lang talaga ma-hurt ang mga feelings namin kasi naman kayong mga lalaki wala naman kayong mga pakialam, ginagawa niyo lang kahit na anong gusto niyo, kahit nakakasakit kayo.. hindi niyo alam. Basta, gagawin niyo pa rin!

B: Hindi totoo yan. Kaming mga lalaki, may feelings din kami. Hindi lang namin ineexpress dahil tinatago namin pero sa totoo nasasaktan din kami. Mahirap sa inyong mga babae, akala niyo kasi mga wala kaming feelings e. Akala niyo kayo parati ung dehado.

An excerpt from the new GMA7 series, I Heart You, Pare. Nice right? Haha!

Just my two cents, I tried crying before to get what I want. But it's not always that woman cry to get what they want. They (we) just get hurt easily. =)

Le Ching Tea House

I can't remember if I told you already about R and I going to some random restaurant. For this instance, or last January 29, we went to Le Ching Tea House in Greenhills. We just talked about eating lunch somewhere and then R jokingly said about eating at Le Ching Tea House. I was thinking about the resto at the front part of Greenhills. Apparently, I was wrong since it was Luk Yuen. Hehehe!

So, we went to the Le Ching Tea House that R wants to go. Yeah, the name sounds real fully. It's like "lecheng tea house". Haha! It looks to me like a karenderya but I was wrong. It was a pricey restaurant! Pfft. Bill? It was 500+ bucks. Real pricey restaurant that looks like karenderya but at least, it was a first-time experience. =)

Ayay budget!!

Budget Apprentice

You know how important it is to stick to a budget but you're still learning the ropes. Here are some tips from Citibank's Use Credit Wisely to get you going:

- Set your goals. What do you want to accomplish financially in the short-term, mid-term, and long-term?
- Gather information. Where does your money go? Look over your paycheck, your billing statements, your expenses.
- Look at the big picture. Where do you stand when it comes to money? Are you earning enough? Are you spending too much? Are you saving?

-- Oh yeah, here's the result that I got from one of Cosmo's quiz.. Yeah, still learning the ropes. ;)

Swear...

..they don't love you like I love you. ♥

Zoo Trip!

Saturday date meant Zoo day trip for us! :) Just thought about going there the night before. I was thinking that we went to a lot of zoos already but hey, it's only the third time! First was at Paradizoo and then, Residence Inn Zoo and then.. Manila Zoo! By Sunday, we'll be going to Avilon Zoo! Hihi. Too much addiction with zoos? I guess we're just not the ordinary couple who just love going out to restaurants or movie dates. We're the kind of couple who will also go out for adventure or nature-tripping.. or with this, animal-tripping. Haha!

R loves close encounters.. and we only experienced it last Saturday at the Kinder Zoo! I dunno if I'll be happy if there was no Kinder Zoo experience. First, it was very messy at the zoo. Second, the elephant is not so sociable and loves turning his back on us. Third, there's no giraffe!!! Last time that I went there, I remember having a picture taken with the giraffe. And now that I'm old, there's no giraffe anymore! BOOO!! I even wanted to see how tall she is from me! *sigh* On second thought, we saw a giraffe.. This -->

SUPER BADTRIP!! *sigh*

Moving on.. I remember R saying at the end of the day that I looked like fascinated with the zoo that whenever he says something and turns his back to look at me, I'm far already, wandering around. :))

Oh well, I hope Avilon Zoo won't fail us this Sunday. Come on! With P300 entrance, I bet there's something special about it! And hey, I wanna see the puma that my workmate is telling us about awhile ago.. I haven't seen one in real life!! :D

I hope as well that I can buy a shirt. =| I still need to go back to Manila Zoo to buy a shirt. Bwahaha. You know, all of the adventure that R and I did, I have a souvenir shirt. ;)

Back2work = Stress yourself!

There goes my workaholic persona..

I arrived at 1230am and went out at 1210nn. Oha. 20 minutes more and I was staying for 12 hours already there! Pfft. Ang hirap ng dala-dalawa ginagampanan mong posisyon. T_T RTA ka na, coach ka pa. San ka pa? Buti sana kung may taas sahod. Hmp.

Patience. Coach certification, I'll get you sooner and not later. You'll see. :P

And then, I remember.. I haven't read my STAR Interview reviewer yet. Sooo lethargic!

I still have some laundry to do. What to wear later? *sigh* Looks like I'll be wearing dresses until Friday because all of my formal attire, slacks and all, were at the laundry. =|

Ohh.. I just wanna sleeeeeep! =s If only I wasn't thinking of FB, I would have stayed longer at work. Adik di ba? :))

PAK. Here goes my toothache again. Bye muna. Nababadtrip ako dahil sa letseng `to. ARGHHH!!!!

Oreo Hot Fudge Sundae!

Toothache!!

And yeah, even though I have it since last night..

I bought this oreo hot fudge sundae awhile ago before going home!

I need to distress.. come on! And I just can't help it.

It's really yummmmmy!!

And yeah, toothache's back. :(

Sky Lanterns!

We just finished watching Tangled - our third movie for the year (Boo!!). But this post won't centralized with that but with.. sky lanterns!! I was really awed when it was being shown. It started with one lantern and then suddenly, the sky is full with sky lanterns already! I remember Santos-Agoncillo celebrity wedding! They did that as well after their wedding. So, I checked it out what does that mean. Per Wikipedia, "It is considered good luck to release a sky lantern, and many Thais believe they are symbolic of problems and worries floating away. In recent times, khom loi have become so popular with all Thai people that it has become an integrated in to the Loi Krathong festival in the rest of country." Now, I feel like wanting to do that as well during my wedding! That would be really nice especially in a clear evening!

Aherm. My dream wedding is still a puzzle for me but little by little, I have details that I wanted to happen on my wedding. =") I really need to save a lot of money already! My dream wedding will really be costly! The photographers, the gown, the videographer and now.. the sky lanterns! Oh, we haven't talk about my future house and everything!! Pfft. I'm being stressed already. LOL

Surprises never fail girls. =)

What's not to love if you got a surprise from someone you love? :")

If you'll check my previous blog, I was in paranoia about R. I've been thinking a lot of things just because of his d*mn phone and since my usual self is paranoid, I really can't help it during that time. =|

My work was at 1AM, technically Saturday morning, but I usually wake up at ten in the evening. But last Friday, I woke up at around 8pm since I was sleeping at my Mom's room. (My brother and his friends used our room to do some mixing for their foundation day presentation.) So, once I woke up, I checked my dear Lenovo and did not text him. I'm still irritated with how I feel, you know. So I did not bother texting him.

Actually, going back to the details of that day, I texted him during the morning (11am?) that I wanted to see him. I totally forgot that he'll be until one in the afternoon and it will be late by then that he'll read my subtle message that I really wanna see him that day. It was around 4 when he called me saying that he'll just change his outfit and then go and see me. I told him not to go anymore since it's already late. =|

Going back, when I woke up at 8pm, I receive some text messages from him and I wasn't replying..

6:11PM - I don't like this.. :( Hayy..

8:03PM - Bebebs.. Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko.. Pero ang alam ko mahal na mahal kita.. :(

(Babe.. I don't know what to do anymore.. But I know that I love you so much.. :(

9:46PM - Bebebs ko miss na kita.. :(

(My babe I miss you.. :(

And yeah, with all the sweet nothings and loneliness that he's feeling.. I did not reply. =|

By 10:26 of that night, he started calling me. I cancelled it and called him instead since I know that he don't have unlimited call. We were talking over the phone when I realized that it doesn't seem like he's at home since there were jeepneys passing by and the dogs' bark weren't as noisy as their dogs at home. When I was asking him where he is, he kept on saying, "house" or "gate" -- omitting the word "my". Then he told me that he's at our gate. I just peeked into our gate but I did not see him. After I told him that, he stood up and I was really surprise! I wasn't really expecting him. I totally forgot that I wanted to see him that day. But hell, when I saw him, it's like all of my worries and paranoia were erased from my mind! I can't help but smile. It's just now that he really gave me a surprise visit! =D

Before, he also come to my place without telling me but I can always feel that he's gonna see me that's why I am not being surprised. That's why last Friday, I was really flabbergasted.. and really happy! But of course, I did not totally forget that I'm really pissed at him. I was even telling him that, "Punta-punta ka dito, tapos wala ka man lang pangsuhol." Oh yeah, I admit it. I was like thinking, since you already made an effort to surprise me, why not add some more? Why not bring flowers, chocolate or food? Hahaha! And yeah, he's not the type. =| I know him that well that I was really expecting that he won't bring anything. Really, he did not. He did not even bring a bag! Hah! He just bought a jacket and his wallet with him. Psh.

And hey, did I tell you already that he arrived at my place at 6PM and then just roam around my place while waiting for 10pm to wake me up? Hell, that was 4 hours!! (And still, he did not thought about buying me flowers! Haha! `Di makamove on? LOL) I was really touched, impressed and flattered. Like, yeah? You did that? WHOA. =") So, before we leave at around 12AM so that he can send me to work, we're at peace with each other already. I wasn't arguing or teasing him anymore. More cuddling already! Oh yes, I missed him!

Paranoia. =(

There's a lot of things going on my mind right now. =|

It started since yesterday.. as what I said on my text.

You weren't sending me text like what you used to do..

whenever you're at school.

Your phone cannot be reached..

whenever I'm calling.

No signal? What's with the phone?

It's not the network provider since you can text through your friends. =|

And when you can be reached via phone already..

you're not picking up.

When I'm sending you SMS..

you'll be replying after an hour or two.

Is it just the phone?

Or.. the thing that I don't wanna ask?

Are you cheating on me??

If it's just the phone, then d*mn it.

DO SOMETHING. You're driving me crazy. =|

Fetch from work :)

We were talking yesterday on when we will be seeing each other. I was wanting to see him yesterday but unfortunately, he can't. He said it will just be a waste because I will just be sleeping when he arrive here. And you know what? That's just how I feel. I feel like he's getting bored already here at home since I'm sleeping whenever I'm here. Of course, I cannot stay awake because he usually go here after my work. =|

So... he told me that he's gonna fetch me from work on Saturday. I told him that it will just be a waste, too, since we'll be seeing each other again by Sunday since we'll be going to his high school friend's party. I can't stay at their house during the weekends since they have a new maid and her aunt usually go there. =| But he insisted that even though it's a waste, he will still fetch me from work. What's with that? When he don't wanna see me yesterday and when it's gonna be the same thing on Saturday? That I'm just gonna sleep once we reach home? Hmm.. Maybe because he'll be able to fetch me from work? Hmm.. Does he know how much I love seeing him outside our work and waiting for me? Hmm.. I wonder. =)

FB Online

He's not the type who goes online. He's not the type who will buzz anyone and do small talks or conversations out of the blue. He just go online whenever I ask him to, whenever I want to talk to him while I'm online. But recently, or the past 2 days, he'd been going online whenever he got home. On the first day, he said that because he's sure that he'll see me online and just the same reason on the second day. I don't what's with it but I appreciate it. He really knows me that I'll go online once I'm off from work. Hah!

Right now, I haven't seen him online. Probably because he's still at school. I just wish I'll see him before I go offline because I'm really sleepy with all of the OTTY (Overtime-Thank You) I'm currently doing at work. So much about handling a team! :(

Forehead kiss :*

IDK why but I just feel so loved whenever he kiss me on the forehead. I know it's just like "just friends" or something "motherly". But with me, it's more of "respect", "loved" and "I'll take care of you" thing. Ohh.. I really miss him. :( I miss those kisses on the forehead that is just oh-so-unexpected.

I asked him once why he loves kissing me on the forehead, he simply said that it's easier. Haha! Coz when we're beside each other, we're not of the same height that it's pretty easier to kiss me on the forehead than going down to my lips. :)) And whenever we're lying down in bed, I usually stay on his broad chest. I really love to stay there. I just feel so comfortable and feel so loved whenever he hug me. It's like, "I can stay here forever."

Hihi.. Cheesy much! :)