(32) Expectations.

When I first saw this, I didn't like it. I was thinking that it's very summer-y (if there is such a word). But when it was part of the sale, oh hell! P100 is really not wasting money. So, I expected that it will be nice.. or maybe hope?

When I got it already, I was disappointed coz it's very see through! Yeah, the white tube isn't included and I haven't thought about that. But when I tried to fit it last night, voila! It's magic. :) It fits me well and is very good for the summer! I'm excited to wear this on the beach! Though I wore it last night at the office already. Hahaha! And yeah, super see through! But damn, I feel sexy. :)

Anyhoo, the left picture is from the online FB account while on the left picture was me wearing it. And yes, I really did not include my face. Bleh :P

(31) Back with CTT Courses.

Yeah, after almost one month, I'm back! Did you miss me blog? :)

Me? I missed you. I missed sharing my everyday event with you.

And yeah, don't get jealous with my Starbucks planner because I wasn't able to fill up things with her as well. :(

Planners are not allowed inside our production floor at the office anymore. BOOO!!

Anyhoo, here's what I got for being back..

My CTT courses! I still don't have my planner, it's still not uploaded at *insert-the-name-of-my-employer-here* University.

And yeah, even though my boss already sent me the sample courses or what it looks like, non-sense. I tried searching for it at the catalog or web courses but it's not there. =|

After me getting excited to start my CTT courses!! :(

(30) PAF.

Finally, I'm done with 3 PAFs! Those are due for March 21 but sadly, I just finished it this weekend. Hehe! I still have 1 more pending but I'll be doing it later. Unfortunately, my agent did not pass and won't have any increase at all. I'll still be checking later at work if I can still do something about it. =s

*sigh* It's hard to do PAFs, you know? It's hard not to give the agent an increase if their grade wasn't enough and was not able to reach the quota. I know it's fair to not increase them but if you do know that they are doing their part to hit their target, no need to get selfish and give them the increase! Especially if they did not receive any before.. I don't know if I'm just being kind or what but.. whatever! I'll give it as long as I can! I don't need to be bitter now since I keep on receiving increase every time it's applicable to me. :)

I just wish that they see my effort and keep on doing their best. :)

(29) Bad dream.

I have a lot of pending posts. It's all on my mind.. and the pics are on my cp/pc. It's all there.. but I can't seem to find time to post one. >_<

And now, I just need to blog this. Argh!

I had a dream awhile ago.. as in, just awhile ago since I just woke up. >_< R and I were at the swimming pool or park.. I can't vividly remember. It was actually my cousin and I first. They were teasing me about removing my shorts so that I'll just be wearing my two-piece. I was a bit shy first then afterwards, I'm on my two-piece already and swimming. After that, R entered the scene and we were swimming. Then, a group of three girls entered the scene and noticed R. Sooner or later, they were talking to R already but they are calling him "Keith". R told them he's currently studying and his course is CM - Chemical Engineering which is incorrect because he's taking up Industrial Engineering. He told them that he's studying at La Salle Dasma, and that's a fact. Then the girl said, "Are you really Keith? The one on the picture?" And R remember a picture that the girl might have picked up. Here goes the part that I think it happened in the park because it's not feasible to find a picture on the swimming pool, right? Then, they were talking as if they are old friends. >_<

During those times, I was just there, keep on roaming around. It's like in the swimming pool, the edge of it, I just keep on walking there. I'm not letting R notice me but I'm on guard on whatever they were talking about. And it all ended up with R enjoying his talk with that girl and me just keep on roaming and watching. T_T

Bad dream.. bad dream.. BAD DREAM!! :(

Please.. let that not happen. Please don't let R have another girl aside from me. :(

I know it's just a dream.. but.. but.. =(

(28) Doll Shoes.

Mom's doll shoes that fits me. I used this before but unfortunately, after a day of using it, the design fell and Mom needed to have it glued. Thus her saying, "Wala talagang tumatagal na sapatos sa'yo." Hehe!

I don't know what's with my feet but any footwear really don't last. Maybe because of it's enormous size and it's bump? (Argh. Basta ung bukol sa gilid!!) Seriously, to tell you honestly, I don't like my feet. I hate it. That's one part of my body that I don't really like. It's big for a girl like me, size 9!, and it's thin.

I'm just thankful that R don't have foot fetish. And whenever I talk about it with him, he's always ready with an answer that my feet is not ugly and that he can even kiss it. LOL

As for the doll shoes, I wore it for 2 consecutive days already and I'm still waiting for the design to fall. :))

(27) Guarded

As I wait in line yesterday at the ATM, I saw this guard in front of me and can't help thinking on how hard is their job. How hard is it to stand up whole day and greet everybody that will enter the establishment? How tiring is it to keep on smiling or greeting just to make others feel that you're friendly? How hard it is to be always alert for any disturbance that might happen around their vicinity? I feel like interviewing a guard and asking them things I wanna ask. :)

And yeah, I missed the guards at work. :( Since I started working, they are the guards I've been seeing ever since. Since I was on training, production, when I was an agent, RTA and now, they were not able to see me as a CTT. :( It's like they are part of your family already but unfortunately, they need to go. :( I really don't know what's the correct or true side of the story. I just now two story:

(1) They loose the bid. The lowest bid goes to the agency (with the guards we have right now) who don't ask to be paid during the 31st of the month. So whenever there is 31st, they will be staying and reporting at work for free. (WHAT THE?!)

(2) Rudeness issue. Lerkei part. We do have rudeness issue on the production floor and until the guards area, we also have rudeness issue? And with all of the nice things that they've been doing, someone complained for rudeness?? OMG.

(26) Tempted.

Tuesday shift just ended and yet, I'm tempted already not to go to work and to go to Laguna. =s I'm too stressed right now. I have a lot of pending jobs to do. And.. I just wanna raise my hand and shout, "WAIT!!! GIVE CHANCE TO RUN!!!" That's why I always feel that I need to go to work even on weekends. It seems like my whole weekdays weren't enough to finish all of the things I need to do. :(

I've been telling to my officemates that I will be out the next day. And since I was tempted to say so, I cannot be absent. I cannot even afford to be late. I dunno. Maybe because I don't want my agents to see me with attendance issue so that they won't have a reason to be absent or late or what.

As much as my co-workmate teases me that I will just be "masipag" and all at the start but sooner or later, I will get lethargic as well, I wanna prove him/them wrong. Dora was able to show us that whether she was a tenured coach already, she still stays at work until wee hours of the shift. I still have high respect on her even though she's not with the company anymore. And I believe that I can also do what she can. Hell, she got married during that time and have a healthy love and sex life. Why can't I? I just need to have proper management. Please Lord, grant me that skill and/or attitude. T_T

(25) Overwhelmed.

Loving the huddle:) tnx coach..:) gudmorning

I don't know but maybe this is just the first time that I received this kind of post. It wasn't posted on my wall but of course, I'm her only coach. :) She's a newbie from my team and I guess she was happy with her first day on our team. I'm just glad. I just feel like, oh, that's one of the reason why I'm here. That even though I will always render OTTY, it's fine as long as I have agents who loves me and appreciates me. =D

Simple message, yeah. But it hit home. :")

(24) Wall Climbing!

R and I had our first wall climbing at Eco Park! Weeeeeee! It was fun but very scary! I was about to go first but I got wobbly knees that I asked R to go first. =s It was a 40-feet wall and R was able to reach around 20-feet! GOOD JOB! :)

Here's a picture of us while R was briefing me on what to do..

While as for me, I was still scary until it was my turn and while I'm doing it! I wasn't able to beat R with this. As much as I want to, it was really scary! =s And my feet are wet already that I feel like I'm gonna slip any moment. =s

Don't worry.. I'm not giving up! I'm gonna try this at Lucban, Quezon! I need to reach the top! =D

(23) Henna again!

I don't know. I think I'm getting addicted with this already. It's just some paint on your body for awhile, anyway.

This is my second henna. My first was at my right hand. Now, I choose to have it at my back. As I look into it now, I just noticed that I was wanting a flower with stars. But this one has few little stars on it. Nonetheless, I still like it. I'm already thinking on what to wear on Monday!

After having this done, R told me, "O, naaadik ka na ata sa henna ah. Baka sa susunod, malalaman ko na lang meron ka nang tattoo."

As of now, I don't think I'll be having one. I saw them having a permanent one and "namamaga" after they had it. It's also very itchy and it hurts a lot. Argh. I'm still thinking on when will I be brave to have one. Good luck with me! I need to think a lot when it comes to that since that would be permanent. =s

(22) La Mesa Eco Park.

Oh yes! Ang mga biglaan date talaga ang mga natutuloy. :) At imbes na kaming dalawa lang, nakasama pa namin ung ibang ahente ko. Super enjoyed!

*Tagalog trip*

Papasok pa lang sa lugar, namangha na ko. Dama ko na ang pagkakalikasan ng lugar. Langhap ko na rin ang malamig na simoy ng hangin. Tipong kahit anong taas at init ng haring araw ay hindi mo mararamdaman dahil malamig ang ihip ng hangin.. salamat

sa mga puno na tumatakip din sa araw!

Pagdating namin sa mismong lugar.. sobrang namangha na talaga ko. Ang ganda! Ang ganda tignan ng mga puno sa paligid. Nabanggit din ng isa sa mga kasama namin na isa sa mga lugar yun na pinagganapan ng Imortal ni Angel Locsin and John Lloyd. Naalala ko nga un! At naaliw naman ako.. bilang isang tagahanga ng palabas na yun. Hehe!

Naglibot-libot kami sa lugar. Ang maganda lalo sa lugar ay isang daan lang siya. Hindi siya ung tipo nang napuntahan namin na Avilon Zoo na pipili ka kung san ka patungo at pag dumaan ka doon, maaaring hindi mo na mapuntahan ung daan na hindi mo pinili.

May nadaanan kaming paliguan na hind gumagamit ng klorin bilang panglinis. Ang tanging gamit niya ay asin, parang sa dagat lang! Nakakaanyaya ang lugar at nakakadismaya sapagkat hindi kami naging handa. Hindi kami nakapagdala ng damit pampaligo.. sayang! Hindi ko pa nararanasan ang makaligo sa ganoong klase! Syempre, iba pa rin ung dagat kesa doon.

Onting lakad pa, nakita na namin ang hagdan ng mga bulaklak papuntang La Mesa Dam. Sabi nila, 100 hakbang pero nung binilang namin, hindi naman! At kahit anong init, hindi pa rin kami pinagpawisan ng sobra dahil sa lamig ng hangin. Nakakaaliw pa ang lugar dahil meron din doong hugas paru-paro na gawa sa bulaklak. :)

Pag lingon mula sa taas, sobrang mamamangha ka sa lugar. Ang ganda ng luntiang lugar na un!

Maya-maya pa ay may nakita kaming tao na nakasakay sa kabayo at lumilibot sa lugar. Sa totoo lang, hindi pa ko nakakaranas sumakay dito. Kaya ang ginawa namin, nagbayad ng 50 pesos para makapagkuha kami ng mga litrato habang nakasakay dito. Mura siya para sa ming lahat kasi nagpalitrato lang naman kami. Kung gusto lumibot habang nakasakay dito, parehas lang ang bayad pero syempre, mag-isa ka lang nakasakay. Sa susunod, pag nagkaroon ulit ng tyansa na mangyari un, susubukan ko talaga! Kahit papano, sapat na rin ung nakasakay na ko sa kanya. :)

Lakad pa uli hanggang makapasok kami sa maliit na kagubatan. Hindi namin alam kung san ang patungo. May nakita pa kaming puno na parang may pintuan papuntang ibang dimensyon. Haha! Hindi na namin sinubukan magpapicture at baka biglang may humatak sa amin.

Paglabas namin ng tinatawag na "foot trail", naghanap kami ng mabibilhan ng inumin. Tumingin sa mga malaking isda. Nagliwaliw sa damuhan at nagpakuha ng litrato. Maraming salamat Haring Araw, sobrang liwanag ng litrato namin!

Umakyat kami sa palaruan ngunit madaming batang naglalaro. Syempre, hindi na kami nakiagaw. Ang pananghalian namin ay noodles. Unang beses ko makakain ng fried noodles! At nasarapan naman ako.. mabuti na lang! :) Nag-chismisan habang kumakain.

Onting lakad pa palabas, napagdesisyunan naming magpa-henna. Tapos hinanap kung saan pwede mamangka ngunit kasalukuyan siyang inaayos. :( Onting tawid at nakita na namin ang lugar kung saan pwede maglaro.. At oo, unang beses namin ni R mag-"wall climbing"!

-Tapos-

(21) The Biglaan Date.

The week that I had was very toxic. I never felt this toxic thing when I was "the" RTA. But as a coach, oh well, what did I expect?

I've been feeling a lot of discomfort when it comes to my relationship with R. There's trust, love and everything else. But I lack confident that he won't leave me because I don't have time. :(

Luckily, my boyfriend asked me if we can have a date by Saturday. He wanted to go watch a movie, go somewhere than staying at our place with us sleeping beside each other. I was even kidding him that he don't have money anymore for whatever date that we can have and he said that he'll be spending our budget for the National Geographic Fun Run. On my end, it's fine if we won't push through with the fun run and I'm also thinking that we can still register until next week, and I'll have money by then so.. sure! I badly need some fresh air. As much as I love my work, I need to go out and not think about it.

I dunno how we ended up with the decision but.. we choose going to La Mesa Eco Park. :)

I really appreciated the effort that my boyfriend did. I appreciate his understanding. I appreciate that he wasn't thinking at the bad side and rather think of ways on how we can still enjoy and have time with each other. Wow.

(20) Time, time and time.

For the past few days, all that I've think of was about time.

What if I wasn't at work during the wee hour of the morning?

What if I was at home bonding with my balikbayan relatives who will be coming back in Canada after 2 weeks?

What if I was at my room, cleaning it or giving myself more me time?

What if I was on my bed, texting with R and saying sweet nothings?

What if? What if?

But.. my career go first as of the moment. I'm just new. I need to work a lot in order for me to achieve what I want to achieve. If I have a lot of money already, I guess, I'll find time to be with people that I need to be with. As of now, I need to stop bothering myself that much.

Heads up, no regrets.

(19) CONFIRMED!!

Finally, it's official! I'm already a Coach Track Trainee! WEEEEEEEEEEEE! Thank God! :)

Coach Track Trainee on our company means you have passed to become a trainee already until you become a coach. It usually takes 6 months for you to become a coach and of course, there will be a lot of things and training to do. We also have finals by the end of the training to gauge if we can do full-time coach task already. :) On my end, I believe that I still have a lot to improve even though I'm already handling a team. I'm still having problems handling particular people.. but I'm improving, I guess. Everyday, I tend to think of the things that happened at work and what I could have done vs what I did.

And just like my henna here, time's fading away. My henna will be 2-week old by Sunday. According to the tattoo/henna artist, this will last for 2 weeks to 2 months. I'm still guessing on until when. :) And yes, just like my henna, there goes my time! Monday shift was a very toxic day. I was at work 8:30 PM - 10AM! Whoa! And then yesterday, I was at work 10PM - 10AM! I'm still adjusting. Or maybe I just really have a lot of things to do. Time Management has always been an area of opportunity for me. =s I wanna be expert on that field already! Because as much as R understand that I'm busy with my work, and not somebody else, he do misses me and I feel the same way. :( We're loosing time with each other already. Or maybe, I'm loosing much time already with him. :( But, promise, I'm still reserving my weekends for him. :) And hey, I'm doing this for our future! That's why I really believe that he do understand me. Haaayyy.. Please, don't let R loose his way. I'm getting scared, eh?

(18) Php370

I have the exact amount on my wallet.. and that should go all the way until Friday.. or salary day which is on Monday. As for today, I guess I had 400 bucks and some coins. I asked one of my agent to buy cartolinas and that cost me 30 bucks. And then, aside from that, my money was well spent with my transportation fee which is a total of 33 bucks. Wow! I can live for 50php a day! Let's see until Friday. Hmm..

What I just really did was to eat dinner at home before going to work. I also did not hail a cab but rode a bus on the way to work since my schedule was change from 12mn to 10pm. :) Then, since we had our Weekly Business Review awhile ago, it lasted for almost 5 hours! We ended the session at 4am. Good thing was, it's one of our agent's birthday and she bought some pansit. Yummmmy! ^^ Then, since I brought 2 pancit canton, I ended up eating that after my actual shift, 7am, before going back to work. O_o

Let's see what I can do tomorrow. Let's think positive!!

(17) Sagada.

Since my workmate was from Sagada, and there's no pic posted yet from her/him/it, I looked for one in Google.

I envy here. I wanted to go there as well! I wanna see those hanging coffins! And they said, it's the heaven in the north. Whew!

And yeah, I forgot to tell you, some of my workmates as well are at Hongkong. They were at Disneyland last Friday, I guess. Or was it Saturday? End point was.. I really envy them! :(

Now I'm looking forward going to Lucban next month! I just hope we'll be able to go to Kamay ni Hesus. I want to buy some time!!

Saw Jesus at the left most part of the picture? That's how far you need to go to meet Him.. and I want to be able to! Since we'll be going near that place! :)

(16) Work on a Sunday.

Too bored to stay at home.

Too much work from a toxic week last week and the upcoming week.

Too toxic. I was caught saying to myself, "What am I doing here?" or something like, "Ano ba `tong napasok ko?" O_o

Ever since I was done with my Behavioral Interview, I don't have any other excuses but to do what I gotta do.

No more, "I'm an RTA, I'm not a coach!" coz since that fateful day, I was bound to do coach's task.

I'm grateful really, but wait for me! I haven't catch up yet. =(

As for my Sunday night, I ended up going to work to do some of my jobs.

Twas hard working with no printer. Too many pending jobs and documents to print!

And yeah, unlucky, Facilities don't have ink anymore. =(

Boss, give me time. Don't get angry at me later.

Please try to understand.

As much as I know you have high expectations with me..

I'm not perfect. =s

(14) Hatid.

I guess I'm too much of a flirt already. But I just wanna know how does it feel if he'll send me to Greenhills. I don't know if I told you about Air sending me to Greenhills before.. and asking me if he can go to work tomorrow so that he'll send me home. Anyhoo, that deserves another entry in case I wasn't able to write about it.

Let's get to the point.. I allowed him to send me to Greenhills. We were talking but we weren't really close. He didn't try to and I didn't try to as well. Just in case, I won't allow him. That's just what I want. Maybe I just wanna know if he can really do it.

Y'know, he do know that I have a boyfriend. He do know that I won't break up with R. And y'know what? He doesn't want to be my second boyfriend if it was ever an option. Of course, I did not tell him about that option. I don't want to. It's just that, he was teasing me on getting a second boyfriend so that I'll know how it feels. But I guess I'm too tired with that already. As what I've been telling R, I'm done playing games when it comes to lovelife. I was able to search for him, or maybe he found me, and I'm good with that already. I'm very much contented. :")

(15) Graduate.

Finally, my cousin graduated already! Actually, it was her clinical graduation. As for academics, it will be on Friday or Saturday, I guess. And yes, my dear boyfriend got jealous again. Hehe! It's the time of the month, y'know. If I do have PMS as the time of the month, his is different. It's about the marching time. Oh! Maybe that's why it's held during March.. marching.. noh? :P

(13) FB Chat.

It's been a week.. that I've been looking forward going home to chat with him. I know for myself that I'm not cheating R. I'm waiting for Bleach to message me and I'm not the one initiating. I guess I'm just enjoying his company. But believe me, that's just it. And I guess, I've proven myself strong enough already. My friends were kidding me that I taste the guy, like yeah, have sex with him. But I don't want to. Any contact, I don't want to. All I can do is talk with him, that's just it. And the other day, he was teasing me when I wished him good luck. He asked for a kiss so I just said, here, kiss emoticon :*. And then he said that he wants something for real, then I told him, "No. Ayaw." Even though I can just flirt all the way since I know for myself it won't happen, I don't want him to think that I'll allow him to do so if ever. I made a promise with R. He'll be mine as long as I'm his. I still want the same thing. I still want R. I don't want anybody else to own him. Grrr. X( :P

(12) Bonding

Since my aunt is here, everyday that I was from work, I go to their place first. As for last Wednesday, (this blog was due that day), my aunties, lola and the neighborhood are making chika. Look how time flies, 5 years, but it felt like nothing happened. :)

(11) My Aunt.

After 5 years...

I'm so glad to see Tita at home.. again! :) I'm happy as well for my dear cousin coz her whole family is here for her upcoming clinical (?) graduation this coming 19. Weeeee! She's so blessed. And we are as well! Coz after 5 years, Tita was able to come back here. Oh, I really missed her!

I remember looking up to her.. wanting her to be my mother.. coz she's always there. My mom was always in the office for my future. I was close-minded then. But now, I'm thankful having my mom.. and still, I love my aunt. ;)

(10) Georgia Watch.

Sorry it's quite blurred. But it was taken awhile ago on my way home. Yes, DST is back, our shift moved one hour early. From 1am shift, it's now 12am. But even though I should be going by 9am, I went home by 2pm. F*ck right? Oh well, too demanding work. I think it wanna replace my boyfriend. LOL.

As long as I'm happy with what I'm doing.. I believe I can take whatever they will give me. But of course, give me time to cry once in awhile.. pampatanggal stress and then, fight ulit! ^^

(9) Behavioral Interview.

Oh yes, Monday is my scheduled behavioral interview and I'm currently applying as a Coach Track Trainee (CTT). Once they approved by application, I'll be training to be a coach already. =D

My interview awhile ago last for 2 hours! I was sweating even though it was cold but I guess I did better than before. I just wish that I will pass by this time.

One of our bosses was telling me that I passed. But since I don't have the e-mail confirmation yet, I don't wanna believe him... but he was included on the panel interview.

What do you think? Did I pass or not?

(8) Henna.

We got our very first henna last Saturday during our team building! ^^ I was thinking of having one before but no opportunity arises. But since we're on the beach and it only costs 100 bucks, I feel like it's the best time to have one. ^^

Here's what R got..

And yes, we were both thinking of having a permanent tattoo. But like I told him, it needs years to think of. Since it's gonna be permanent, we don't need room for regrets for that. If you'll ask me what tattoo would I like to put.. it will be L. And I actually wanna put his name on my body. But.. they said it's bad luck. And what if we broke up? As much as I don't want to, I believe it's not a wise move as of now.

Let's see what will happen after the years go by. After all, I won't be able to donate blood within 3 years that I put one permanent tattoo on my body. Oha.. As if I'm donating bloods. Haha! E it looks like I'm the one who needs it. Bleh :P

(7) Pre-Nuptial.

*For Saturday

Landi landi ko.. feeling pre-nuptial na! Hahahaha! I really love the pictures that was taken by Blossom. I feel like R and I are getting married already and the set up for the pre-nuptial would be the beach. I loved how I dressed and I loved how he did as well. It's very serene and it wasn't us who was acting and who do know that someone's taking a photo of us. We were just enjoying the beach, the wind and all. And look, he's holding my hand! I wasn't really noticing it during that time.

Ohh.. until when are you gonna hold my hand? Forever, please? ^^

(6) Chillcat's Closet

*For Friday

.. bought some clothes at Chillcat and got it last Friday. They do have a lot of clothes right now that they are selling and they were featured last Sunday (March 6) at Kabuyang Swak na Swak! Sosyal sosyal. ^^

There are times that the clothes are not of good quality, but it's really unique. As for me, I'll support my friend all the way.. even though it means not being sure of what clothes to buy. ;)

(5) Bikini Wax.

*For Thursday

Oh yes, I already used my free bikini wax from Cosmo at Lay Bare. :) It was worthy.. believe me. I feel fresh and free.. after that f*cking session. IT HURTS! Fortunately, the person who attended to me was very friendly and was making me talk. It was like, I was telling some stories and then, she'll pull the wax and I'll go on cursing. Hahahaha!

Believe me.. it's a must try. My boyfriend loved it. ;)

(4) Payslip.

It's not yet payday. It's just the 10th of the month.. but I'm checking my payslip already. And yes, to my dismay, it's not yet updated. I'm so ambitious kasi e. Hmp. I wanna know my salary. Waaaaaaah!! There's a lot of things that I need to budget for.

• Swimming this coming Saturday
• Graduation dress for my dear cousin
• Chillcat clothes
• NatGeo fun run!
• Yellowcab treat for my team

Will I still have money after that? Don't disregard my normal budget ah.. Like..

• 2k for laptop
• 1k for internet
• 2k for allowance

OMG. Like how much money am I expecting this payday? Pfft. Gumagastos na naman ako sa utak ko ng wala pa man ung pera. AMP!!!

(3) UA Wax

When you see hair, it's time to lay bare.

So, I had my very first UA wax experience awhile ago. I wasn't expecting anything from it and unfortunately, it hurts. F*ck. Why did I not think of asking my workmate first since he had his wax yesterday? Argh!!

Nonetheless, I think it was worthy. I feel renew. LOL. But I'm thinking if I will still continue with bikini/brazilian wax. I haven't decide yet which to choose for that.

As for the details...

It was actually the first time that I had it wax. I don't know on what would be the process.. Rebecca just told me that they will be using honey for that.. for every part of your body that do have hair and that you wanna get waxed. But I never imagined the process! *toinks!* I was used to shaving it ever since coz I dunno how to pluck it and I feel like plucking hurts. =s But since they said it's dangerous already to do that, I thought of having it wax.. and then I'll just go back there every 3-4 weeks. They said also that you're gonna have dark areas if you'll be shaving it and yes, I think I'm experiencing it already. F*ck again! So, for the process, they will ask you to wear a robe (if you're not wearing sleeveless or spaghetti strap top). Then they will ask if you used deodorant or not. If yes, they will clean first your UA. If not, they will go to the process of putting powder or cold wax (not sure really) and then use the honey and start waxing your UA or whatever part you wanna get wax. After that, they will pluck the short hairs and they will put something, like a lotion (?), for the finale. It's for smoothing effect or something. Seriously, I can't remember that much because it really hurts. Mine actually bleed and they said it's normal for a first timer and since I was into shaving before. =s I just hope that next time, it won't be that painful and that it won't bleed. Huhu.. But I'm proud of myself. :) I was not shouting or anything violent (lol) unlike the girl on the other cubicle. Hehe! Wonder why? The girl kept on shouting. She was having her brazilian wax and she can stop but to keep on complaining and asking the girl to stop for awhile coz it hurts. According to the one who was assisting me, you just need to bear with it since it's your first time and so that it will be done after awhile. Coz if you will keep on complaining, it will just lengthen the pain that you're feeling and the session as well. And I do believe her. Kasi ung sa kin, tiniis ko na lang talaga para matapos na. Haha!

Now I'm thinking if R's sister is having the same process with Belo or if it's laser. If it is laser.. envy!! That costs thousand naman kasi e.. Hmp!

(2) Swimsuit.

These are the new swimsuit that I've been talking about. Super nice!! I actually tried wearing them already, and I look sexxxy! I just don't know if I'm just overly confident or what. Hehe! I'll know about it once R saw me wearing this. Weeeee! I'm excited!!

And hey, I was able to talk to my aunt regarding this and unfortunately, there was really no undies when she bought this. :( It was during a clearance sale and she really wasn't successful in finding the partners. :( Oh well, I just need to look for a black one as their partner. Wish me luck! ^^

(1) Closet.

I'm so proud of myself! Do you know how much time I gave so that I can have this all piled up? Hah! It's hard to have a lot of clothes. And I wasn't really imagining myself to have all of this clothes already! I always have problem on what to wear coz I always think I don't have any. But when I finished fixing them all, oh, I just need to have a new closet! Coz I'm still thinking of adding a lot of clothes by buying! But really, I think these are just few. :P

TMI: Lay Bare

I want to try this! Argh. But I'm.. scared?

My workmates and I will be going to Batangas this coming Saturday to go for a swim! I'm excited.. even thought it's a beach that we'll be going to. I'm not a fan of beaches, you know. I'd rather be on a pool. Maybe because I'm not a good swimmer, I only know the basics!, and maybe because there aren't much of good memories when you go to beaches. I experienced having sands all over my swimsuit whenever we go to the beach. Or, I will accidentally step into something sharp. Those are the usual thinking that I have whenever we'll talk about beaches. And you can't really blame me coz I experience it. But this coming Saturday, I'm willing to give the beach another chance. :)

I'm really excited to go and swim.. and because R will gonna join us! :) I don't feel like being there without him. Luckily, he asked his parents yesterday and they agreed. YAY! Luckily as well, the dress that I bought at Chillcat is the right outfit for the event. Here it is..

Nice, right? But it's kinda big for me. I need to alter it. But it's definitely super nice!! ^^

I already have a two-piece, but I wanna use the new one! Unfortunately, I can't find the undies. Those were given to me by my aunt but the undies wasn't included. I'm not sure if it wasn't really included or someone took it. =| I think someone took it! Because it still has price tag and my name on it. Hell. :( So, I'm thinking of buying undies for that swimwear instead. =( Oh well, I need to buy a pair that matches what I have as well. I hate it! :(

Third problem, I want to have bikini wax and UA wax! =) I just bought the latest Cosmo mag and it includes free bikini wax from lay bare. But I'm thinking of Brazilian instead. I haven't really tried it yet.. to any waxing salon. Last year, I tried to shave it (hehehe! I just had my period and it was super itchy!!!) and R was so happy about it. I think he got horny. LOL I just got curious, y'know. But after that, I don't wanna do it again coz when the hair was growing again, it was hella itchy! ~X( Still, I wanna try this one. Since it will be in a waxing salon, they're experts. But I still need to wait for my period to end and they said that I should have the waxing session 3 days before I hit the beach.

Calculating....

I got my period last Wednesday, it stopped yesterday, but this morning, I got "pahabol" period. I just need to cross my finger so that it will stop by tomorrow and I can get the wax on Wednesday. Wish me luck! I hope I got the courage to do this. I really want to! Please....

And I'm thinking to surprise R about it. :") Rawr.

Real friends?

"K, my editor, told me once that you never lose real friends. You lose contact sometimes; lose time to talk and catch up on each other’s daily life; lose the short distance to meet and have coffee. But good friends quickly pick up where they left off, as though you saw each other just yesterday." -- Bedroom Blog by Veronica, Cosmo.ph

It made me think again.. and again.. and again. I remember my friends before. I remember that particular group of friends that I had. I actually had a blog about them. I just can't find it. Hehe!

I'm still thinking that they were my real friends. That they are a group of friends that I can relay to and depend to when I need them. But just because of me not having time? They totally forgot about me? I was just giving them some time when our friendship was on the rocks because I know they are angry. But to end up like that? *sigh* I just can't stop thinking about them. :( I wanna make amends but I feel like, something's stopping me. It's like, if they are really my friends, they will not do that. They will not get jealous about the time that I'm giving to R. They will not act that way. Oh well, I guess I just thought that they are just my family.. that no matter what happen, they will remain on my side. :(

At least now, even though I have very few people that I can call friends, I know they are for real. Think positive na lang! :)

It's always a choice.

Been in a foul mood since I had my period. Had numerous fight with R due to simple things. One example was when I asked him, "What if I have another guy? What will you do?" And he just said, "Nothing." With just that, I got berserk and did not talk to him until the other day. Oh, okay, I did text him but I was very civil. Thanks to my period, it gave me a lot of mood swing. =|

When he fetched me this Saturday morning, we ended up fighting again. I even told him, "If we're just gonna fight, better go home. I'd rather fight with you over the phone." And on my mind, I was thinking, at least, I can sleep it all off for me not to feel any pain.. rather than being with him, feeling the pain coz we're not A-ok. =( Y'know why we had a fight? Just because of the food. =| I asked him to buy me McDo cheeseburger and friends.. and Oreo with hot fudge sundae. I wasn't able to eat lunch at work because I was so stressed-out. (Yes, that deserves another entry.) And I ended up having burger and fries from Philly's and Oreo ice cream.. like the Swirly Bitz of Jolibee. ARGH! I was really disappointed. I don't like eating Philly's anymore.

Everyday.. at work.. during lunch.. we're eating there. I wanna have other food! And Oreo ice cream? I DON'T LIKE. I want the one that has hot fudge sundae!! :( And so, I did tell him. But I still ate the ice cream.. I just can't push myself to eating Philly's. And then, he got irate and kept on telling me, "If you don't want it, then throw it." I was like, WTF?? I'm already eating it because I know his effort and still, he keeps on saying me those things. ARGHHH!!! ~X( All the hair on my body really got curly and I gave back the ice cream to him and walked out. I was walking with a fast pace and even though it was raining, I-didn't-care. It really pissed me off. He pissed me off!!!

I still ended up at home.. with him. As much as I asked him to go home, he just wouldn't. I know, it is sometimes irritating, but that's what I love about him. He knows that even though I'm pushing him away, I was just doing it because I am angry.. and that I really don't want him to go. Hehe! I know.. I know.. that's just how woman thinks. And that's the reason they said that we're very hard to understand. :)

We ended up still fighting even though we're on my bed already. I was facing the wall while crying. He keep on saying sorry.. and I hate it. I don't want sorry. I hate people keep on saying that word. I need explanation.. not sorry. Then, I got a hard time breathing again. =| It's always like that. If I super cry, I can't breath normally. It's like I'm gonna loose all the air inside me. That made him worry. He asked me to sit, I don't want. So, he pull my body until I was sitting

already and he gave me water. Then, it was a blur. I guess that's the time that I fall asleep. Zzzz..

When I woke up in the evening, I was in a good mood already. We talked about it and yeah, we're okay again. I told you, I just need to sleep to calm me down. Hehe! So, we went to Chillcat's place so that I can get the clothes that I bought. (Search for Chillcat's Closet in FB, they were featured this Sunday morning in Kabuhayang Swak na Swak). Then, ate at Max's!

By the end of the meal, he was throwing up. =| Too much food, I guess. After that, we went home and he stayed at my place. =D We woke up around 3am and bought some food.. FAMISHED!! And more cuddle! Hahahaha! Actually, the night before that, he was asking me if I love him. I kept on saying "No." Of course, I love him. I was just making him think. I don't know but it kinda irritates me whenever he ask those questions during the time that we're together and during the time that there's nothing wrong between us. I love him. I choose to love him. And I believe that I'm destined to love him. I know he still think about those guys around me making contact or flirting with me but.. hey, I'm still here. I choose you. (Pokemon? LOL)

Before the sun rise up, he made me remember again how much I love him and.. I won't go into details about that.. TMI!! :))

Sunday morning, breakfast at Jollibee and we said our goodbyes. :)

Even though we had a fight after seeing each other last Saturday..

we had a fair share of happiness by the end of our weekend together.

We said goodbyes by giving each other a peck on the cheeks.

And it made me smile on my way home.

All's well that ends well!

Til next weekend, my love! =)

So... done! =D

I'm done paying off my Baby Alive that was bought by my cousin in Canada.

And I'm done paying off the automatic washing machine that cost 10k!

(Mom and I divided it to half and I'm so done paying it yesterday!)

YEBAHHH!! =D

What's left for me is..

Lenovo laptop that costs me 25k.

If I continue paying Mom with 2k every salary, by end of June, I'll be done paying it.

Instead of the scheduled December that I'll end up paying.

Weeeeeee! I'm so excited to finish it up!

So that I can have a lot of money to put into my savings.

(I put 1k yesterday instead of the usual 500 because I already got my leave credits!)

And I can buy a lot of things already! Like gadgets... and all! =D

Just sharing.. Ayieee! I'm proud of my self! ^^

Boss is back!

After her one month hiatus, my dear "mother" is back. And yeah, even though I haven't seen her whole day (almost!) of my shift, I felt her. How? Her e-mails. Her inquiring how things were going around. And her.. asking what I've been doing with this and that and those!

By 830AM, when almost everyone is gone already, she called me and was sent to her office. I don't want to. I feel like she's gonna ask a lot of questions on what happened when she was away and I know, she'll make me feel what I did not do. And yeah, almost all of those, I know. I wasn't focusing with my RTA jobs anymore.. I wasn't hitting deadlines for less important reports.. I wasn't e-mailing and making everybody be aware about RTA tasks like Service Level. She can also say that I wasn't doing one-on-one SKEP with my agents. But hey, don't blame me. I have 2 jobs at the same time.. with no increase!

Nonetheless.. I love her. ♥

She's one of the reason why I still stay at my post. I believe her. I respect her. And I know she feel the same way. Even though my application has been ages already.. it's fine with me. I'm not rushing into it.

Going back.. our talk at her office was about one of my agent who submitted her resignation later due to change of management. I was shocked.. really. I can't answer my boss why she did put that reason there. =| We don't have any issue.. that's what I know. Since she graduated from OCP, she's my agent. I was never mean to her.. and I don't know what happened. =| For what I know, she don't like Mojo Jojo, my friend who was their coach. I really need to talk to that agent later.

Aside from that, my boss asked me about my application and interview. I told her that I guess it will be by end of this month. I've talked to the HR Generalist and I told her that I'm not in the hurry and it's fine if we're gonna do the interview late March but since boss is back, she e-mailed and was trying to call HR to expedite the process. I knew it.. and now I'm scared. I don't think I'm ready already. I appreciate my boss' trust on me. But.. but.. and a lot more buts!!

Oh well, I'll just go and review my notes after this so that any moment that they will call me for the interview, I'll be ready. And yes, I'm not gonna tell anybody about it. I'm not gonna tell anybody at the office so that in case I'll fail, no one will know as well. Hehehe! Darn. I'M SCARED!! I'll just believe in the saying... If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. That happened before anyhoo, I did not pass. And I still believe that before, it wasn't meant to be. I wasn't prepared enough. I just hope that this time, I'm already prepared and this will be a blessing.

So help me God. Wish me luck! But quietly.. through a prayer. ;)

I don't understand.

It's Saturday, my RD and I'm at home. Why? Why am I here? Why am I still awake? I should be sleeping by now. And I'm very much tempted to sleep already.. and to wake up tomorrow evening! Eat dinner and then, will just sleep again `til it's Monday already and I just need to go to work.

*sigh*

I just want this weekend to END.

DATE: Bowling and Church-hopping

Manila Cathedral

Churches are structures who are being given a lot of effort and design.. architecturally (if there is such a word). It's very seldom that you'll see an ugly church because of course, that's a place of worship. I wanna go to a lot of known church here in Manila and in the province! I'm actually planning to a create an album once R and I started to go around the churches! Maybe we'll start on Holy Week.. if ever that there won't be any change of plans. :)

As for bowling, last night, since my shift was 10pm-10am (oh yeah, 12-hour shift!), I was dashing to Greenhills by 930pm and was caught in the traffic around Rob Galleria. Then, I saw it on neon lightnings, "PAENG SKY BOWL". Oh, another first! I WANT ANOTHER FIRST!! I wanna try bowling.. with him! We're thinking of inviting friends for this since we both don't know how to play the game. I can imagine how happy it can be once we're teasing each other on how we score with bowling. That'll be fun! Another date to look forward! =D

And hey, our Fun Run date will finally happen already on Sunday! Weeeeeee! I'll update you about it ASAP! ;)

Abused.

"O, parang lagi ka na lang late nakakauwi ah. Di ka na nakakaalis ng 10am sa office niyo."

That was what my boyfriend said.. or to that effect awhile ago once I called him on my phone. I ended up staying at the office until 12nn and due to me trying to finish everything's on my hand.

As a lot of people do know about me at work, I'm currently during a Real Time Analyst (RTA) and a Coach task. I'm a certified RTA, yes. But I'm not yet a certified coach. As much as everyone wanted me to be a coach already, and of course I wanted it as well, I'm not yet certified. Actually, I'm not even a trainee. I'm still waiting for my Behavioral Interview.. and I'm not ready about that one, too. Good thing, it's not yet being scheduled but they said that they want me to rush about it already. =s

I wanna be a coach. I almost perfected my RTA job already that they do rely on me when it comes to that part of my job even though I have my partner.. because as arrogant as I may sound, even if my partner will resign, the production won't stop because I'm there. But if I'll resign, or will be out for a long time, they will be in a chaos. Hehehe! Actually, it happened already. That's why my boss was asking me before on when will I be back because they need me.. oha. ;)

Going back..

I'm getting tired already. I'm fine with doing everything that I can. They can give me a lot of things to do and I can still manage. But I can't go on like this. If I'm the coach, fine with me. Even though there's a lot of things on a shoulder of a coach, I'll do it -- as long as you pay me as you pay a coach. If not, let me just go back to being full time RTA. At least, I know what I'm expected to do and I'm able to help out the production even though I don't need to because being an RTA isn't that much as a coach. Sometimes, I really just ask for some job so that I'll have productive time. But with me being with a coach post? Please don't expect everything from me.

I am not always superwoman. I am human.

(But hey, don't get me wrong.. I still love my job. Just give me a job that is equivalent to my pay.)

Vacation Affair

Two brokenhearted person meet abroad and found themselves in love with each other. Quite possible right? Especially if they are both lonely.. but what if persons in there real life will be back to their lives even before vacation ends? Isn't that quite hard?

Hmm.. Now I'm thinking about Bleach. He can always give me shivers in one way or another but no one can beat R's place in my heart. My feelings for him won't be transferred to any other person or won't even be close to that. But before I go deeper into that, let me just share what happened Friday night..

As I leave home for my last day of work last week.. I passed by Bleach and his friends. Actually, I wasn't able to see him and did not dare to look as well. I just know that he was there because his friends were teasing him about me. And then, when I'm already at the corner where cabs passed by, I received a message from him..

"Kumpleto na ulit araw ko kasi nakita kita.. -bleach"

And yes, I admit it, that put a smile on my face. I replied saying,

"Wala ka pala e.. Di mo kayang lumapit sa kin e."

Which he replied with..

"Waaaaa. Mukha kasing nagmamadali ka e. =("

And then I replied,

"Excuses. Sige, work na ko. Good night!"

Actually, those lines weren't the exact lines since I had it deleted already on my phone.

Which made me think that.. is it just coincidence or fate? I don't have his number and I did not save it after he texted me -- which explains why he put his name on the last part of his first text to me. And then, I totally forgot about it before I cleaned up my inbox and sent items last night. I guess it's really not meant to be. This is not really the right time for us.. if ever that we will really have that time.

Going back.. During that time, I can't help myself but to be flattered and smile until I got to work. But I guess, that's just it. After all the butterflies are gone, you'll go back to your real life. Just like what I said at the first paragraph of this entry. At the end of the day, or that so-called vacation, it all boils down to you whether to pursue that "affair" or go back to what you've left before.

For me, I will always go back to R just as like what I've promised. As what I've told my friends at work and to myself, "Minsan, gusto mo lang lumandi to feel that you're still beautiful because other people can still appreciate you and see your physical beauty. But at the end of the day, I will still and always go back to R. That's just it. ^_^" And true to my words, I picked seeing R in the morning, after my shift, and spent my Saturday with him. I may not be that girl that you expect to be faithful with a guy, coz my Mom said I'm like my Dad who's a playboy, but I am loyal.. I only have R in my heart.

Oh.. girls!

Girl: If you caught your girlfriend lying to you, would you break up with her?

Boy: How do you want me to answer?

*girl gave boy a confused look*

Boy: It's hard to understand what a woman really wants.

If I say the wrong thing, you'll be mad at me, them I'm assed out again.

Girl: It's not that difficult.

Have you ever listened to Parn Thanaporn's song?

Boy: Parn Thanaporn?

Girl: I think the lyrics are extremely deep.

It goes.. women don't like watching football

but will watch to be by your side.

We might not know how to wear make-up

but will always push a little brush on for you to see.

*a scene from Hello Stranger ;)

Crazy Little Thing Called Love (Thai Movie)

You just have to watch this!

It's a Thai movie.. that was posted by my friend. Actually, I saw it as well on my laptop but decided to not mind it. But since I've read a lot of good comments about this, I decided to watch it this morning since I can't sleep anymore -- yeah, at 5 am in the morning, my bed don't want me anymore!

Anyhoo, it was all worthy. It's really a nice movie! Kilig, funny and a feel-good movie! ^^

For three years, I have done everything. I changed because of you. I applied for classical dancing club, I acted on a play, I became a drum major, I studied harder — it’s all because of you. But now I know, the thing I should have done instead — the only thing I should have done a long time ago — is tell you that… I love you.

A Crazy Little Thing Called Love

How Time Flies..

Thanks to Facebook, you'll be able to see your friends before or those who you've interacted with before. So, as I was browsing this group that I was included with, my first year section in a state university in college, I was looking into everybody else's profile. Instant reaction of a person wanting to know what happen to this person and that after not seeing each other for a long time.

Then, a random guy posted something on that group, or so I thought. And then it just hit me, hey, that was my so-called "crush" before. Ooohhh! Long time no see!

We weren't close even before. He was my crush back then just for the sake of having a crush and just for the sake of having an inspiration to go to school. Y'know the feeling that you're just lazy going to school and you need to have a reason? He was what I called "reason" before. It wasn't really a die-hard crush.. I just liked him because he's so quiet and mysterious. I don't know what's with girls who really like mysterious type of person.

Moving on, I was flabbergasted when I saw this on his profile picture...

The kid's so cute!! I thought he's like a baby of his cousin or sibling.. but apparently, the kid's his. I just can't imagine he was capable of that. Not that he looks like "baog" or something but he wasn't the kind of person that you'll be thinking that he'll be the first to have a baby on our batch. Y'know that thought when you were just in high school or college that you'll be naming people that you think will be a doctor or lawyer someday.. or someone who will be the first to get married or pregnant.. those kind. :))

Hmm.. This is just a proof that the guy has good genes! Hehe! And hey, I saw his recent picture, he looks more attractive than before. Why do people really change appearances after 5 years or so? Haha! I wonder if those people will gonna say the same thing to me.. because according to my uncle, nothing changed to my features back when I was a child. Hmmm..

The Perfect Girlfriend

posted by: Monica Lara Gamboa

Yes, she exists. And no, she’s NOT the supermodel type with the long legs and perfect skin.

She’s even BETTER. She’s the type of girl that looks BORING, the one you’d overlook

—she’d be your LAST choice.

At worst she’s insecure, clingy, shallow, jealous, nagging, sensitive, dramatic, emotional and annoying. But if you can’t handle her at her worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve her at her best.

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So, what is a "PERFECT GIRLFRIEND"?

They say there’s no such thing as perfection and that she doesn’t exist. Oh trust me, SHE DOES.

She dresses up all cute and pretty every time YOU take her out on a date. This is her way of keeping YOU interested as your eyes are locked solely on her. You stare at other girls instead, and she gets hurt and upset that all her time and effort were put to waste.

YOU CALL HER = INSECURE.

She holds on to YOU like she’s never letting YOU go. This is her way of telling other girls that she’s lucky that she has YOU, and no, YOU’re not available.

YOU CALL HER = CLINGY.

She calls YOU the sweetest nicknames, or ones that only YOU two will understand. This is her way of saying how special YOU are, and that there’s nobody else in this world like YOU. You call other girls “BABE” just as how YOU would call her, and she gets disappointed.

YOU CALL HER = SHALLOW AND JEALOUS.

She checks up on YOU, making sure YOU made it home safely or that YOU’re not out getting yourself into any kind of trouble. This is her way of showing how often she thinks about YOU and that she worries constantly because that’s how much she cares.

YOU SAY SHE’S "NAGGING."

She cries when YOU do or say something wrong. This is her way of saying “that hurts only because YOU said it and I LOVE YOU.”

YOU CALL HER = OVERLY SENSITIVE AND EMOTIONAL.

She loves YOU more than YOU love her. This is her way of dealing with the FACT that your relationship wasn’t like how it used to be.

YOU CALL HER = DRAMATIC AND ANNOYING.

So go ahead. Leave the insecure, clingy, jealous, nagging, OVERLY SENSITIVE, annoying girl. She will soon be much happier in the arms of someone who actually deserves her: the PERFECT boyfriend.

Credits to Belle de Jour website

Date A Girl Who Reads by Rosemarie Urquico

(In Response to Charles Warnke’s You Should Date An Illiterate Girl.)

Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.